loss of innocence

[crazee_bi_chick]

I followed him home, just like he asked. I parked, and got out of my car. I walked over to him. He kissed me, he motioned to the townhouse and said "this is where I live." I walked next to him. He opened the door, and told me to go upstairs, where his room is. I put my bag down, and sat on his bed. He pulled me up, and said "come on, lets take a shower." We went into the bathroom, with the lights off. He pulled off my shirt, and then took off my pants. He pulled off his shirt and pants as well. I was so nervous, I was shaking. He kissed me, picked me up, and sat me by the sink. He grabbed his penis, and then I felt something in my vagina. I pushed him away, and said "what are you doing?" He showed me his hands, and said "relax, its only my fingers." He rubbed my clit and kissed me, then bit my nipples, and squat down. He licked me slowly at first, then went deeper and faster with his tongue. I remember I used to wonder what it felt like to get eaten out, and suddenly I knew what all the "fuss" was about. It was incredible. When he was done, he got back up, and fingered me while kissing me, and caressing my breasts. He picked me up, and said, "lets get in the shower." While in the shower, we did all but lather up, and rinse... He kissed me all over, he knelt in front of me and ate me out again. He fingered me, and I played with his penis. He told me "put it in your mouth." So, I knelt infront of him and licked the head, while jacking him off. I kissed his penis everywhere, I sucked his balls, and licked them. Listening to him grunt and moan in pleasure only made me want to do more... I wanted him to cum on me. He pulled me up, and kissed, caressed, bit, and licked my breasts, while I jerked him off. He fingered me faster and harder, and I managed to goa t the same speed with my hands on his cock. He said "kiss me, Im coming." So, I kissed him, between his grunts and moans. When he was done, he kissed me slowly, caressed my body, then grabbed the bar of soap and lathered me up. Then, he lathered himself up, and just held me. He rinsed off, and as he was getting out of the shower, told me to rinse off. When I finished, he gave me a towel, and I dried off. I wrapped the towel around myself, and picked up my clothes. I went to the room. He had put on his shorts, and was looking for a tshirt. I went to the bathroom, and put on my tanktop and undies, and came out. His room-mate had come home, and knocked on the door. He told me to get in the bathroom, and the guy was talking to him about his trip to NY, and I thought he'd never finish. When he was done, he came back into the room and appologized. He put on a DVD, and we got in the bed. I dont even remember what movie it was, I guess I missed the title screen. Anywho, we were laying together, and we were both falling asleep so he turned off the movie. At around 3 am, we went at it again. He fingered me, ate me out, I jerked him off, and sucked his cock. He wanted to have sex, and I asked him if he had a condom, he said no, so I told him it wasn't going to happen. We fell asleep together, after he came. Then at around 7-8am, we went at it again. He ate me out, and fingered me, but it was starting to hurt because we'd been trying to fit his humongous cock in my tiny little opening earlier. He never gave up though. He told me to get on top of him, and I did, and he tried, I thought I was going to die. I felt a sharp pain, and then it was in. I never even noticed. He fucked me slow at first, then he went faster and harder. He's pull it all the way out, and slam it back into me. After a while, I just couldnt take the pain. It wasn't going away. So I told him to stop. And I gave him a blowjob. He didnt cum, but we just lay together for about 10-15 min, and then we went to take another shower together. Same as the night before, only the fingering really hurt, so instead he just ate me out, and then I sucked his cock. He told me he was coming, so I waited for him to do so, with my mouth open... First time I'd ever tasted cum. And it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.... We showered, and I put my clothes on. He showed me the rest of the house when his room-mate left. Then, I had to go home...

I don't regret doing it, I just feel a bit stupid for not using protection... And I really hate how sore I am, and how much it hurts.. I can't even pee... Oh, and another thing I didnt like much as that it was sort of just lust...no love. I wouldve liked my first time to have been with someone I loved, and that loved me...