Castles Lost
Trigger Warning for Suicide
When I was eight my parents offered me a deal. I could have a big birthday party like I always had or I could have one big present. I of course, choose the present; which would always be, for the next several years, the latest video game system.
I was never really popular. I wasn't bullied, but I didn't really have more than one or two friends. So, when I got home, I would play my video games. There I could be a hero with lots of friends and save the world or the princess.
Things changed when I moved to a new school and made friends with a girl names Sara, with no H, that pissed her off to no end if you used the H. Sara loved video games as much as I did and would come over after school. We would play whatever new game had just come out or go back to classics that were always amazing.
Where as I came from a great house with parents who wanted to give me everything. I was a really well behaved child and they wanted to reward me. So normally if I asked for a new game I would get it.
Sara on the other hand, had verbally abusive parents, who were either yelling at her or ignoring her completely. She was depressed a lot but she was always happy to be playing games with me.
Sara got sadder and more depressed as time went by. She got put on some pills and they didn't seem to help. She talked to a psychiatrist who she called an idiotic egghead. And, we played video games. We talked sometimes about things we had to live for. I remember telling her to think of all the video games we would miss, and she laughed saying it would be terrible to never know if Mario & Peach got married.
When we were 13 we started playing Silent Hill (yes it was M but my mother always thought we were mature enough for it). We had been playing for about a week when one day I went into school and she wasn't there. I wondered if she was sick so I called her house right after school. No one answered and I started to get worried something had happened.
The next day at school I got brought to the office out of home room. I was told that Sara had died. I don't remember a lot of the conversation besides crying and discovering that she had killed herself. She had used pills.
I never found out much else. I don't know what pills, or where they came from. I don't know what it was that finally caused her to take her own life. I don't even know if she left a note.
I never finished Silent Hill. I never even touched it again. At one time I thought I should finish it for her, but I also thought how could I when it was a game we were doing together. I've still never finished it, I doubt I ever will.
*Note: This was written as an entry into therealljidol Week 3: Topic: In Another Castle
When I was eight my parents offered me a deal. I could have a big birthday party like I always had or I could have one big present. I of course, choose the present; which would always be, for the next several years, the latest video game system.
I was never really popular. I wasn't bullied, but I didn't really have more than one or two friends. So, when I got home, I would play my video games. There I could be a hero with lots of friends and save the world or the princess.
Things changed when I moved to a new school and made friends with a girl names Sara, with no H, that pissed her off to no end if you used the H. Sara loved video games as much as I did and would come over after school. We would play whatever new game had just come out or go back to classics that were always amazing.
Where as I came from a great house with parents who wanted to give me everything. I was a really well behaved child and they wanted to reward me. So normally if I asked for a new game I would get it.
Sara on the other hand, had verbally abusive parents, who were either yelling at her or ignoring her completely. She was depressed a lot but she was always happy to be playing games with me.
Sara got sadder and more depressed as time went by. She got put on some pills and they didn't seem to help. She talked to a psychiatrist who she called an idiotic egghead. And, we played video games. We talked sometimes about things we had to live for. I remember telling her to think of all the video games we would miss, and she laughed saying it would be terrible to never know if Mario & Peach got married.
When we were 13 we started playing Silent Hill (yes it was M but my mother always thought we were mature enough for it). We had been playing for about a week when one day I went into school and she wasn't there. I wondered if she was sick so I called her house right after school. No one answered and I started to get worried something had happened.
The next day at school I got brought to the office out of home room. I was told that Sara had died. I don't remember a lot of the conversation besides crying and discovering that she had killed herself. She had used pills.
I never found out much else. I don't know what pills, or where they came from. I don't know what it was that finally caused her to take her own life. I don't even know if she left a note.
I never finished Silent Hill. I never even touched it again. At one time I thought I should finish it for her, but I also thought how could I when it was a game we were doing together. I've still never finished it, I doubt I ever will.
*Note: This was written as an entry into therealljidol Week 3: Topic: In Another Castle