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Dave drove me and alex to baltimore last night to see Vince in the hospital. It was really hard and really sad to see him like that. But i'm glad we went. I was having a hard time facing it and wasn't able to get sad about it- and that made me feel really bad, because i didn't/couldn't have an emotional response or connection to it. But going, seeing him, getting sad, crying... it all helped make the situation more real, so i can face it, accept it, and deal with it. It was really cathartic. He's at peace with it. And i guess its good that it was pretty sudden like this, rather than it being a long drawn out kind of thing. We don't know how long it'll be, but it probably won't be very long at all.
As soon as we walked out of the hospital, it started pouring rain. and it was torrential downpour for the rest of the night. It was nice though. It made it easier to be sad.
I'm worried about alex. She's leaving tomorrow for 3 weeks. And odds are, he's gonna go while she's gone. And I know that'll be really hard for her. Plus, she'll feel guilty for not bing here.
I'm going to Blaise's birthday party in a little bit . there's gonna be delicious food, wine, instruments, awesome people, and possibly a hot tub.
Tomorrow i think i'm gonna go to poker night at Jon's house. I told him I couldn't come over last night bacause i had family stuff i had to deal with. I didn't want to drag him into my heavy personal stuff, so i wasn't specific. But he was so sweet about it. He was just like, i hope everything's alright. stay up girl. I'm realizing more and more that he's just a really sweet guy. I'm gonna see where this goes.
I've been making bank barista-ing. I have no idea how much i'm making, but its a lot. I should start keeping track. just out of curiousity
As soon as we walked out of the hospital, it started pouring rain. and it was torrential downpour for the rest of the night. It was nice though. It made it easier to be sad.
I'm worried about alex. She's leaving tomorrow for 3 weeks. And odds are, he's gonna go while she's gone. And I know that'll be really hard for her. Plus, she'll feel guilty for not bing here.
I'm going to Blaise's birthday party in a little bit . there's gonna be delicious food, wine, instruments, awesome people, and possibly a hot tub.
Tomorrow i think i'm gonna go to poker night at Jon's house. I told him I couldn't come over last night bacause i had family stuff i had to deal with. I didn't want to drag him into my heavy personal stuff, so i wasn't specific. But he was so sweet about it. He was just like, i hope everything's alright. stay up girl. I'm realizing more and more that he's just a really sweet guy. I'm gonna see where this goes.
I've been making bank barista-ing. I have no idea how much i'm making, but its a lot. I should start keeping track. just out of curiousity