Mumblings
It's about time I updated.
I'm mountained under work, but don't really feel anything much, I'm sure I'm MEANT to feel stressed and anxious, but to be honest I don't know if I can really be bothered.
Currently my textiles folder (should be like 30 pages of PURE LOVELY WORK) doesn't exist. But meh. I'm failing my AS's and WHO CARES?! Life's too short. I figure live for the day, tomorrow be run over?
Yes. One achivement, have finished decorating mum's bedroom, well partially. Seen as tho it was left stripped, my mum painted, and then we wall papered. This was successfully completed yesterday much to my mum's smiles (and of course my own).
Brain = whirring.
Decorating meant lack of work, btw.
Also, strangely I can hardly remember much of my relationship with Alex. This doesn't worry me, but I don't exactly know what it means. It feels like we broke up A LOT longer than just over a month ago. I mean it was 11 months... surely my brain should still feel like "ah. that meant something while it lasted." Currently... not so. It's not like it was a terrible relationship! It was great while it lasted, and ended pretty well, so I have no idea why I feel so... dead? about it.
Otherwise, back to school. LOts of work SHOULD be done. I feel like I'm soon gonna be agreeing with my mum's "it's gonna get worse before it get's better" I think i've actually been kinda numb for the last few months, and to be honest still am.
The day I regret nothing, I know I'll be dead inside. Damnit.
Sorry if this don't make much sense, just typing.
Argh! Mechanics SUCKS. DO NOT understand one bloody uttered word of that damned exam paper I was set for holiday homework. I hate it.
I feel like I should still be in like... yr 8 or something. Not preparing to go to uni in a year and a half.
Life's gonna fly by and I'm gonna have no clue what happened.
Seriously considering just LIVING for a bit. But based on my recent experiences, not so sure if that's a good idea, results in distancing myself from the real world, and I guess that's worse than being the school-zombie.
That's all :)
xx
I'm mountained under work, but don't really feel anything much, I'm sure I'm MEANT to feel stressed and anxious, but to be honest I don't know if I can really be bothered.
Currently my textiles folder (should be like 30 pages of PURE LOVELY WORK) doesn't exist. But meh. I'm failing my AS's and WHO CARES?! Life's too short. I figure live for the day, tomorrow be run over?
Yes. One achivement, have finished decorating mum's bedroom, well partially. Seen as tho it was left stripped, my mum painted, and then we wall papered. This was successfully completed yesterday much to my mum's smiles (and of course my own).
Brain = whirring.
Decorating meant lack of work, btw.
Also, strangely I can hardly remember much of my relationship with Alex. This doesn't worry me, but I don't exactly know what it means. It feels like we broke up A LOT longer than just over a month ago. I mean it was 11 months... surely my brain should still feel like "ah. that meant something while it lasted." Currently... not so. It's not like it was a terrible relationship! It was great while it lasted, and ended pretty well, so I have no idea why I feel so... dead? about it.
Otherwise, back to school. LOts of work SHOULD be done. I feel like I'm soon gonna be agreeing with my mum's "it's gonna get worse before it get's better" I think i've actually been kinda numb for the last few months, and to be honest still am.
The day I regret nothing, I know I'll be dead inside. Damnit.
Sorry if this don't make much sense, just typing.
Argh! Mechanics SUCKS. DO NOT understand one bloody uttered word of that damned exam paper I was set for holiday homework. I hate it.
I feel like I should still be in like... yr 8 or something. Not preparing to go to uni in a year and a half.
Life's gonna fly by and I'm gonna have no clue what happened.
Seriously considering just LIVING for a bit. But based on my recent experiences, not so sure if that's a good idea, results in distancing myself from the real world, and I guess that's worse than being the school-zombie.
That's all :)
xx