im going...
i dont even know where this entry is going to lead, but i havent written in a long time. really written, to write. this summer has been such a good one. its so different from last years (miss the crew) but i love it just the same. so many different experiences. and isnt that what life is about. the experiences that you get to have. and then taking from those and adding on to your life. so i met this kid this summer. we arent going to name names, but hes been teaching me a lot and ive just been doing a lot of thinking lately. you know life is not about getting to the end. its about taking the moments that you have minute by minute. you cant worry about what happened yesterday or the day before because as i was told...the goodness of tomorrow erases anything bad in today...theres not always going to be answers to everything and thats just something that you have to live with. i know the people that care about me and the people that i care about. and thats what i need to focus on. i cant focus on what others think about me. or if i am always making everyone happy and pleaseing everyone. thats just not humanly possible. im finally moving on with my life. i need to take that step and go. i want it so badly, and yet there are still many things that are holding me back. everything comes with time i guess. and as hard as that is for me, i have to wait and take each day as it comes or else it just causes more confusion, frustrasion and hurt. and not everything is always going to work out the way you want it to, but it will work itself out and eventually be ok. i need to stop being in a hurry wherever im going. it will come with time. as i was told by some wise person recently...you have to get past the easy shit before you can get to the real things. im not even sure what that means but im working on that. so thank you significant person for giving me things to think about. as much as i hate it, its good for me. you basically....yea i dont even know, but you do. so thanks for everything........annnnnnnnnnnnd cut!