say goodnight and go
Being around my friends lately has reminded me that I have weird quirks. I realize I'm a weird person - I say things, not necessarily things on my mind, but things just for the hell of it. I touch things that I'm curious about. I talk about times when I did something weird. People look at me strangely. I'm not ashamed of all this, but it is humiliating when people point out these things like they're flaws. I'm not mad though.
I also cannot stand synthetic friendships, aka FAKENESS. It's been bothering me a lot lately, and forcing me to act differently towards people. I don't want to say things to my friends like, call them pet names, then go behind their backs and say something downright nasty about them. So I don't say anything at all. I've seen this happen far too much, and I admit, it sickens me. I can't stand saying "I love you" if I don't feel it, or "I miss you" if I don't feel it. I feel unhappy with myself, and I feel really fake. I belive in sincerity, especially towards friends, or boyfriends/girlfriends for that matter. Saying "I love you" to them, to quote Travis: "is like, telling somebody you admire a lot that they're great every single day. it completely ruins the meaning." You know when you just think about somebody you really admire, and all the great things they've done, and you get this sudden burst of excitment and love for this one person? That's an appropriate time to tell them you love them. And I really do get that feeling about people.
"They say if you smile when you think of people who are gone, you loved them" - Kinky Friedman (author of the book i'm reading now)
I love reading - it helps me write!
I also cannot stand synthetic friendships, aka FAKENESS. It's been bothering me a lot lately, and forcing me to act differently towards people. I don't want to say things to my friends like, call them pet names, then go behind their backs and say something downright nasty about them. So I don't say anything at all. I've seen this happen far too much, and I admit, it sickens me. I can't stand saying "I love you" if I don't feel it, or "I miss you" if I don't feel it. I feel unhappy with myself, and I feel really fake. I belive in sincerity, especially towards friends, or boyfriends/girlfriends for that matter. Saying "I love you" to them, to quote Travis: "is like, telling somebody you admire a lot that they're great every single day. it completely ruins the meaning." You know when you just think about somebody you really admire, and all the great things they've done, and you get this sudden burst of excitment and love for this one person? That's an appropriate time to tell them you love them. And I really do get that feeling about people.
"They say if you smile when you think of people who are gone, you loved them" - Kinky Friedman (author of the book i'm reading now)
I love reading - it helps me write!