chrissi pressi
god i have so much boring stuff to do right now slash soon and cant be bothered with any of it. moving, working and sitting the gallery (sound of crickets to establish how many people come in) but its only open for two more days. and wats with like noone answering calls, messages, i was discussing it with rohan bell towers and he was like yeah, wats with that? and we came to the conclusion that its because we, separately, or together, are annoying. ha. anyways, working at savers so much. its so tiring. legs ache by the end. but its ok cos they have changed the cd from the chrissi one to a 'chartsy' kind of one. its a lot less inclined to make you crazy.
being tired might not be helped by all the intense wastedness i have been delving into- aka a bottle of red each night or a few "funny" cigarettes. my skin is like one million volcanoes. need rehab. but its so juicy to go to bed wasted every night night night (sound of those words echoing in my mind so as to reaffirm their fuckedness) and also helps in the dealings concerning friends....so sick of having to deal with bad issues with friends- isnt that who yr not meant to have issues with? and then i think that its all my fault for being a bad person but i dont think thats the entire reality. makes the loneliness so much more heightened, but of course- they dont care! ha ha ha h ah kill me. i think the gunja doesnt help this cause aye?
i do have a new puppie though. its so intense. it is too small. its head is like the smallest cranium i have ever seen. it gets lost like every five minutes and then its like under a teacup or something, watever. spose im going to limpwrist and hugh owens party for fucken stupid nye.
i need to feel like this for a bit
kseeya
being tired might not be helped by all the intense wastedness i have been delving into- aka a bottle of red each night or a few "funny" cigarettes. my skin is like one million volcanoes. need rehab. but its so juicy to go to bed wasted every night night night (sound of those words echoing in my mind so as to reaffirm their fuckedness) and also helps in the dealings concerning friends....so sick of having to deal with bad issues with friends- isnt that who yr not meant to have issues with? and then i think that its all my fault for being a bad person but i dont think thats the entire reality. makes the loneliness so much more heightened, but of course- they dont care! ha ha ha h ah kill me. i think the gunja doesnt help this cause aye?
i do have a new puppie though. its so intense. it is too small. its head is like the smallest cranium i have ever seen. it gets lost like every five minutes and then its like under a teacup or something, watever. spose im going to limpwrist and hugh owens party for fucken stupid nye.
i need to feel like this for a bit
kseeya