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I had the worst jury ever today.
i started my monologue four times, and kept fucking up the words and not remembering what i was doing.
my song was just bad. weed had to vamp for about sixteen bars, i forgot all the words.
they said
"the good news is you're a better actor than that."
and told me that i have grown a lot and that i'm a great person to work with and to be more assertive etc.
the standard brigid appraisals.
and then i hung out with my dear chinaza for a few hours and had a lot of fun just hanging out.
i'm so sick of school.
i have an f in pre-calc.
i don't know what to do.
i'm getting back into tori/ani/leonard cohen. it's really great. refreshing.
i feel like i'm wasting my life, and it doesn't even matter because in one hundred years my conscious mind will be gone and it won't matter what i've done, because "i" won't exist. which really really really freaks me out. a lot.
i just have no idea what to do about anything, i feel like i'm going nowhere. slowly.
i started my monologue four times, and kept fucking up the words and not remembering what i was doing.
my song was just bad. weed had to vamp for about sixteen bars, i forgot all the words.
they said
"the good news is you're a better actor than that."
and told me that i have grown a lot and that i'm a great person to work with and to be more assertive etc.
the standard brigid appraisals.
and then i hung out with my dear chinaza for a few hours and had a lot of fun just hanging out.
i'm so sick of school.
i have an f in pre-calc.
i don't know what to do.
i'm getting back into tori/ani/leonard cohen. it's really great. refreshing.
i feel like i'm wasting my life, and it doesn't even matter because in one hundred years my conscious mind will be gone and it won't matter what i've done, because "i" won't exist. which really really really freaks me out. a lot.
i just have no idea what to do about anything, i feel like i'm going nowhere. slowly.