can u hear me knockin'?

[cray_z_fool]

so i was confused about a lot of things going on in my life and i think i've finally gotten my shit together and i know what i want. some shit with chino has been bugging me all to fucken hell and i got a big ass slap in the face and realized what i want. yah he doesn't have his shit together but i know right now as we speak he's trying and he knows if he doesn't do what he needs to do then he's on his one way ticket to being single cuz i don't need someone draggin ass around me but i'm willing to give him chances and i know he's realizing it from the shit he tells me... i also know you gotta start off rough to get somewhere and he's right, he didn't and doesn't have it easy the way i do, about the car issue, he wasn't handed a car like i was. if it were put on my hands to get a car all i would have is quarters and dollars to ride the fucking numero uno shuttle. i was lucky to get what i wanted/needed and chino wasn't fortunate in that area so i can't bash him for it. but then againnnn he coulda saved money since he was way younger to have a car by now... you see shit is just off the wall and all i'm saying is yah i love chino so wtf i can't just leave him stranded cuz he's lagging i gotta be the one to push him and so far i've gotten him to finish up his school, and he takes the bus to imperial for that shit. hey that's a fuckin start. i love him and i'm proud of him [for that]. i just made a total turn around from not wanting or caring to be with chino to a total "i can't live without him" thing... shit lol

now onto some "non gay" shit

i don't work saturday... (WOOOOHOOoOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) so that's just fan-fucking-tastic so i get to be up all night on friday for planter's (my first time there =O ) i could really care less for shortbus i hear they're jerks but i'm all up for seeing a show and hanging out with my friends and boyfriend so it's cool. tomorrow my parents are going to SD for the night so i asked chino to come spend the night with me aww i can't wait i really miss that pie face. hmmm... party? haha the last "cool" party i had here was my 8th grade party where someone brought fireworks and a gun. that party was bangin'... literally.... there was even almost sex0r on my bed! horny 8th graders.

new wanna-be hot chick poser bitch sunglasses brought to you by ME for athena and the rest of u ljers:



back to work....