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hey is anyone there? anyone ever read these ever anymore? i feel dumb to write in them and not get a response EVER. i guess i do it for myself.... i dunno, maybe everyone ran over to myspace or something.
well anyhoo, its Bryce's Brother's b-day and we're at his mom's house. ive been here since 5something i think in the morning. just chillin. working with Bryce's mom is like, the most fun job ever. i love hanging out with her so much. she really inspires me to live. not the way bryce does... but, to live purposely i guess.
i got his bro a Hawthorne Heights jacket... i was worried he wouldnt like it because i dont know how much he likes them and i found out that his mom already bought him a jacket the day before from Pacsun i think. he's a skaterkid btw. turns out i think he loved the jacket. he threw it on and i havent seen him without it on... its not even that cold in the house so YAAY!!! i did good.
you should hear what im getting Bryce for Christmas... its... nah, i can put it on the internet. he might find out or something. and this is the BIGGEST secret i have ever kept! im not good at keeping secrets. thats why at school everyone knew who i liked the next day I found out i liked them. even though i didnt think it was too bad if someone you liked thought you liked them... i get so carried away...
ive got a job tomorrow at Ga Tech. the main lady at my modeling agency called me personally and asked if i would do some promotional work for her. heck yeah!!! a way to prove myself to her. teh only problem is that i dont exactly know what im going to be doing... i know that its for geico. everyone ive talked to about it tell me to just be very outgoing. weird how they ALL say that. they sound like rapists or something. lol. scAaRY.
Bryce and i are GREAT! did i mention that i love his mom? well, i do! i hope everyone is having so much fun without me. man i miss everyone. do you ever wish you could wake up tomorrow and go to school two years ago with what you know today? i would have hung out with my friends more. the problem WAS though... i never really thought people were my friends until bryce and i talked about so much stuff. i always thought that i was some cruel joke to behind EVERYONE's back. i dunno. i feel so dumb now for it. i thought Johnny felt sorry for me. i thought Katie thought i was weird and not funny. i knew terri was my friend but i could never understand why... i remember taking up for her on the bus everyday partially because i wanted to kick some girl's asses. everyone thinks im so weird and confusing and they hate me... then they become my friends. i dont know if ive ever been like that to someone i didnt understand. i feel like (most of all, though) that everyone got so damn close... and then split up so quickly. like we were particles brought together just for exploding. eh...
i feel as though... like my seemingly useless ramblings... everyone has still conformed me into someone better than i couldve become myself.
.......................THANK YOU SO MUCH....................................
well anyhoo, its Bryce's Brother's b-day and we're at his mom's house. ive been here since 5something i think in the morning. just chillin. working with Bryce's mom is like, the most fun job ever. i love hanging out with her so much. she really inspires me to live. not the way bryce does... but, to live purposely i guess.
i got his bro a Hawthorne Heights jacket... i was worried he wouldnt like it because i dont know how much he likes them and i found out that his mom already bought him a jacket the day before from Pacsun i think. he's a skaterkid btw. turns out i think he loved the jacket. he threw it on and i havent seen him without it on... its not even that cold in the house so YAAY!!! i did good.
you should hear what im getting Bryce for Christmas... its... nah, i can put it on the internet. he might find out or something. and this is the BIGGEST secret i have ever kept! im not good at keeping secrets. thats why at school everyone knew who i liked the next day I found out i liked them. even though i didnt think it was too bad if someone you liked thought you liked them... i get so carried away...
ive got a job tomorrow at Ga Tech. the main lady at my modeling agency called me personally and asked if i would do some promotional work for her. heck yeah!!! a way to prove myself to her. teh only problem is that i dont exactly know what im going to be doing... i know that its for geico. everyone ive talked to about it tell me to just be very outgoing. weird how they ALL say that. they sound like rapists or something. lol. scAaRY.
Bryce and i are GREAT! did i mention that i love his mom? well, i do! i hope everyone is having so much fun without me. man i miss everyone. do you ever wish you could wake up tomorrow and go to school two years ago with what you know today? i would have hung out with my friends more. the problem WAS though... i never really thought people were my friends until bryce and i talked about so much stuff. i always thought that i was some cruel joke to behind EVERYONE's back. i dunno. i feel so dumb now for it. i thought Johnny felt sorry for me. i thought Katie thought i was weird and not funny. i knew terri was my friend but i could never understand why... i remember taking up for her on the bus everyday partially because i wanted to kick some girl's asses. everyone thinks im so weird and confusing and they hate me... then they become my friends. i dont know if ive ever been like that to someone i didnt understand. i feel like (most of all, though) that everyone got so damn close... and then split up so quickly. like we were particles brought together just for exploding. eh...
i feel as though... like my seemingly useless ramblings... everyone has still conformed me into someone better than i couldve become myself.
.......................THANK YOU SO MUCH....................................