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hello, if there is anyone who reads this.
its pretty funny that Terri always makes everyone out to be evil and against her and the bad one. im not the bitch shes made me out to be. "i dont need friends like that" mmhmm. honestly i cant keep something under for too long. its not so much as i have been ignoring her. please. i barely talk to anyone online anymore. especially when im with Roy. im not complaining. i mean im usually online at his house. id rather be chillin with my Hottie than getting addicted to the internet.
but back to this, well I dont know if i can handle having HER as a friend anymore. are ya happy now Terri? this something for ya? finally some words? well, we USED TO have a great friendship. but i dont know where it went. maybe with your relationship with Anpoo i dunno. you didnt care about being my friend then did you? i didnt go whining and making you look like the bad guy. actually i figured, hey whatever maybe our friendship didnt mean as much to her as it did to me. i tried to come up with some reason even making myself the bad guy. maybe i did something or said something. maybe im just to boring or stupid to keep up with your quick wittiness. haha. anyhow i tried to act like it didnt bother me. but i guess it wasnt working because id barely knew Roy and he could see this. he asked me about it and i always defended you but wondered why. why didnt you think about someone besides yourself? i didnt know how selfish you were until you were with Andrew. you kissed Tim, who's the first person you call? me, i couldn't have been more grateful to help you get your head straight and make you feel better. it just so happened to be around the time that Roy was going out with another girl and i was as bummed as i had ever been in my life... you may not think that is much, but there is ALOT that you dont know about me. have you ever had to sit and listen to your oldest brother drunkenly beat his girlfriend... the mother of his two children... while you were supposed to sit and play 007 goldeneye in the next room and act like it was nothing? well anyways, bummed out of my mind. i couldnt stop thinking of everything. i had to draw a picture i knew i could never draw in my lifetime just to get focused on something. i didnt whine about Roy. well, you called whining to me, as a good friend i told you not to worry, to get your head straight and before any more time passed tell him first thing. so he knows and you guys can work it out. i was trying to be the best friend i could be. not judging what your actions were, and do you remember what you said to me?
"nevermind kim, you wouldn't understand, you didnt even DO ANYTHING with Roy yet, you dont know how it is." and you let me go. i coulndt believe it. i never said anything to you about it. i never complained about you to anyone til your actions got so old i coulndt stand it. i wrote it in my diary and cried and got over it. i have so many of these stories i wouldnt want to booooore you though. your so dramatic. calm down once in a while.
maybe the point there was that i have watched you or listened to you whine about the tiniest things possible to get somebody to feel sorry for you. its never worked on me. from all i have experienced all ive seen i couldnt feel sorry for anything you said. usually it was something youd brought upon yourself. i never said any of this. i was brought up to keep things hidden. keeping things quiet. i HATE when people whine about the tinyest things. things could be worse. so why dont you save your whining, bitching, and moaning for a time when things, are really bad. please.
i have come back to you, you have come back to me. same repititions, i shouldnt have sometimes but i felt so bad for you and wanted to help. especially when i heard about you and Andrew, i wanted to make you feel better. i brought you into our days. me and my friends of now that is. and sure we had fun, until you felt you had you make me look stupid in front of them, make me mad, make me seem like the baby. online one person, in real life another is what you are. your there when you want something, your not when i need you. i cant keep this up. so many times i wanted to talk to you lately but couldnt. Roy told me not to, not to put him in any of this but, he did that im betting because he knows all this that i feel and maybe he wanted to spare you the hurt feelings. but i cant sit here while you call me a bad friend or say YOU dont need friends like ME. i dont know who couldve been there for you more. brushing off the occassional kick to the mentality or spirit or even the ego. but im sorry you couldnt see past yourself.
P.S.: the bad things you said about Roy's sister? well, we are the same size, so we have figured that the bad stuff you were thinking about her have to be about me too. i really appreciate it. you're not as fat as your brain makes you think you are. so dont bring everyone else down with you. think about how funny you are and how much everyone likes your enthusiastic stories and comments and maybe youll appreciate yourself once in a while. some of us have.
later.
its pretty funny that Terri always makes everyone out to be evil and against her and the bad one. im not the bitch shes made me out to be. "i dont need friends like that" mmhmm. honestly i cant keep something under for too long. its not so much as i have been ignoring her. please. i barely talk to anyone online anymore. especially when im with Roy. im not complaining. i mean im usually online at his house. id rather be chillin with my Hottie than getting addicted to the internet.
but back to this, well I dont know if i can handle having HER as a friend anymore. are ya happy now Terri? this something for ya? finally some words? well, we USED TO have a great friendship. but i dont know where it went. maybe with your relationship with Anpoo i dunno. you didnt care about being my friend then did you? i didnt go whining and making you look like the bad guy. actually i figured, hey whatever maybe our friendship didnt mean as much to her as it did to me. i tried to come up with some reason even making myself the bad guy. maybe i did something or said something. maybe im just to boring or stupid to keep up with your quick wittiness. haha. anyhow i tried to act like it didnt bother me. but i guess it wasnt working because id barely knew Roy and he could see this. he asked me about it and i always defended you but wondered why. why didnt you think about someone besides yourself? i didnt know how selfish you were until you were with Andrew. you kissed Tim, who's the first person you call? me, i couldn't have been more grateful to help you get your head straight and make you feel better. it just so happened to be around the time that Roy was going out with another girl and i was as bummed as i had ever been in my life... you may not think that is much, but there is ALOT that you dont know about me. have you ever had to sit and listen to your oldest brother drunkenly beat his girlfriend... the mother of his two children... while you were supposed to sit and play 007 goldeneye in the next room and act like it was nothing? well anyways, bummed out of my mind. i couldnt stop thinking of everything. i had to draw a picture i knew i could never draw in my lifetime just to get focused on something. i didnt whine about Roy. well, you called whining to me, as a good friend i told you not to worry, to get your head straight and before any more time passed tell him first thing. so he knows and you guys can work it out. i was trying to be the best friend i could be. not judging what your actions were, and do you remember what you said to me?
"nevermind kim, you wouldn't understand, you didnt even DO ANYTHING with Roy yet, you dont know how it is." and you let me go. i coulndt believe it. i never said anything to you about it. i never complained about you to anyone til your actions got so old i coulndt stand it. i wrote it in my diary and cried and got over it. i have so many of these stories i wouldnt want to booooore you though. your so dramatic. calm down once in a while.
maybe the point there was that i have watched you or listened to you whine about the tiniest things possible to get somebody to feel sorry for you. its never worked on me. from all i have experienced all ive seen i couldnt feel sorry for anything you said. usually it was something youd brought upon yourself. i never said any of this. i was brought up to keep things hidden. keeping things quiet. i HATE when people whine about the tinyest things. things could be worse. so why dont you save your whining, bitching, and moaning for a time when things, are really bad. please.
i have come back to you, you have come back to me. same repititions, i shouldnt have sometimes but i felt so bad for you and wanted to help. especially when i heard about you and Andrew, i wanted to make you feel better. i brought you into our days. me and my friends of now that is. and sure we had fun, until you felt you had you make me look stupid in front of them, make me mad, make me seem like the baby. online one person, in real life another is what you are. your there when you want something, your not when i need you. i cant keep this up. so many times i wanted to talk to you lately but couldnt. Roy told me not to, not to put him in any of this but, he did that im betting because he knows all this that i feel and maybe he wanted to spare you the hurt feelings. but i cant sit here while you call me a bad friend or say YOU dont need friends like ME. i dont know who couldve been there for you more. brushing off the occassional kick to the mentality or spirit or even the ego. but im sorry you couldnt see past yourself.
P.S.: the bad things you said about Roy's sister? well, we are the same size, so we have figured that the bad stuff you were thinking about her have to be about me too. i really appreciate it. you're not as fat as your brain makes you think you are. so dont bring everyone else down with you. think about how funny you are and how much everyone likes your enthusiastic stories and comments and maybe youll appreciate yourself once in a while. some of us have.
later.