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I thought I could escape. I can't escape myself.
My goal was to be free from all adictions.
addiction to food addiction to people like my exboyfriend addiction to caffeine. addiction.
I have been trying to overcome so that I can face myself.
Tell me, have you ever truly faced yourself?
Don't eat for a few days straight. Talk to nobody. Do not log online.
Give in to no addictions and go to your mirror and look yourself in the eyes.
Face yourself.
What is there when you have freed yourself from all addiction.
Face yourself.
Vast loneliness.
A loneliness so great you can not describe it or give it any words especially the words as inadequate as your own. Face yourself and see what is there.
And there they are. All of your issues you have alwyas tried to surpress, perhaps without ever knowing you were doing so.
it hurts in the strangest fucking way because the more it hurts the more it frees you and the better it feels. the pain pulls you in and sets you free.
al these things that would plague you forever if you had not adressed them.
all of your addictions; myspace, livejournal, tv, music, reading, socializing, eating, alcohol, drugs. they are all here to distract you from yourself.
if you hate yourself here is why:
you have blocked yourself in by bricks and bricks and bricks of addictions [see above]
the only way to be free,
to be happy,
to enjoy the pleasure of your own company,
to love yourself,
is to face yourself and overcome all of the things you have turned to fill, or at least distract you from, your countless voids.
My goal was to be free from all adictions.
addiction to food addiction to people like my exboyfriend addiction to caffeine. addiction.
I have been trying to overcome so that I can face myself.
Tell me, have you ever truly faced yourself?
Don't eat for a few days straight. Talk to nobody. Do not log online.
Give in to no addictions and go to your mirror and look yourself in the eyes.
Face yourself.
What is there when you have freed yourself from all addiction.
Face yourself.
Vast loneliness.
A loneliness so great you can not describe it or give it any words especially the words as inadequate as your own. Face yourself and see what is there.
And there they are. All of your issues you have alwyas tried to surpress, perhaps without ever knowing you were doing so.
it hurts in the strangest fucking way because the more it hurts the more it frees you and the better it feels. the pain pulls you in and sets you free.
al these things that would plague you forever if you had not adressed them.
all of your addictions; myspace, livejournal, tv, music, reading, socializing, eating, alcohol, drugs. they are all here to distract you from yourself.
if you hate yourself here is why:
you have blocked yourself in by bricks and bricks and bricks of addictions [see above]
the only way to be free,
to be happy,
to enjoy the pleasure of your own company,
to love yourself,
is to face yourself and overcome all of the things you have turned to fill, or at least distract you from, your countless voids.