Walking Before The Tumble
Things get weird, mainly everything around me...my parents want to know so much about me but its a little hard to talk to them after all ive done and they never really being beside me in those situations....they never realized i was hurting...also things with Caitlyn are weird...i mean i know were not gonna end up going out for now atleast, if we do...but just she sees me for who im not...she sees me for the "good kid" but im not....i might not be doing drugs and all or i might go to church on the weekends...but i mean does it really matter...does that make a kid good...or is it cause im considerate of other's feelings?....what ever the thing is i get confused on how she feels about me at all....im not looking for a relationship to fall "in love" with cause i cant deal with all that right now.......also she thinks some of the things i told her was cause i changed my mind for her...or that im trying to prove to her by doing this....i mean like the awkward subject me and her talked about but i changed my mind...not for her but because i want to do it with her thats about it.....who knows...whatever the situation is...i know i still like her and its rare for me to give her a chance...let me just wait and see what happens....lata days