over the years
haven’t eaten in awhile
i dont even think about it anymore...
its funny how in the beginning every thought of mine was concentrated around food..now i hardly think of it...my thoughts have moved on to other things and this disorder has almost become an innate instinct. that fact alone borders along the lines of terror. Because I’ll always want to be thin but, I don’t care like I used which doesn’t make sense because I eat less and less as time progresses. My body has adapted to starvation mode, I haven’t gotten a period in over a year and I don’t lose weight with my calorie/activity ratio like a normal person would. I’m actually thankful for this..otehrwise I don’t know what would happen…
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i dont even think about it anymore...
its funny how in the beginning every thought of mine was concentrated around food..now i hardly think of it...my thoughts have moved on to other things and this disorder has almost become an innate instinct. that fact alone borders along the lines of terror. Because I’ll always want to be thin but, I don’t care like I used which doesn’t make sense because I eat less and less as time progresses. My body has adapted to starvation mode, I haven’t gotten a period in over a year and I don’t lose weight with my calorie/activity ratio like a normal person would. I’m actually thankful for this..otehrwise I don’t know what would happen…
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