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It's been a battle to find words to say to him. It wouldn't have been such a battle if I could've just figured out how I felt. I feel like I've sat down and tried to figure this out before. This is a memorable situation, because it's one I had a week ago. I thought I had it all together. I believed that's how I felt. But then things started to change. I almost decided to do my own type of distancing myself, but I'm glad I didn't. That could have led to a disaster. I couldn't have handled that type of disaster.
So I prayed.
Since Wednesday I have been praying. Then tonight, my prayer was answered. He showed me how I felt. I have no idea what I'm going to say, or if I'm going to say anything. I don't know when or how. I don't know where. I don't know how he'll react or how I'll even react. I haven't even been able to think of what all of this means. I know I don't want to date, but I know I don't want to not date. Good thing I know something or that last statement would've caused me even more confusion. All I know is that right now it's how I feel. I'm not worried about the future. I like where I am right now.
I had an incredible time tonight.