welp, it's official
So, I went to his house tonight, did my laundry and all..and I tried to bring up my speech, and whenever I started to get my point across, he kept blowing me off! Saying things like "oh god..." and "whatever, shut up" I almost wanted to cry, then I stopped myself and realized that he wasn't even worth the breath it took to tell him what I had to say. He had no intention of listening, he just didn't care. I told him I couldn't be his friend and he goes "fine, ok, whatever" I don't think he believed me! He didn't take me seriously at all..wouldn't even talk to me about it. So I guess he's gonna get a wakeup call when he notices my disappearing act. He can't say I didn't give him fair warning though, he just chose not to listen. I'm actually glad he chose to be a prick about the whole thing, makes it easier on me. So when he finally dropped me off, I gave him a hug and said "bye" and he's like "bye" gets back in the car and calls out the window "talk to you tomorrow!" meanwhile I'm thinkin "uh..no you won't, did ya think I was kidding?" Oh well..part of me would have liked better closure, but he just wouldn't allow it, but enough's enough. I'm not gonna try to be his friend and sit by and watch myself be replaced so quickly and easily. I don't want to be friends with someone who seems to only hang out with me out of obligation and guilt. I couldn't help but notice the last few times we hung out he seemed really irritable. I would try and be chipper and he was always snapping at every little thing; who wants to be around someone like that anyway? Not me. I'm guessing it's becuase he's feeling a bit guilty..at least that's supposed to be a sign of a "cheater" and even though he's not officially cheating, he did move REALLY fuckin fast after we broke up, so I wouldn't be surprised if he felt a bit guilty..at least that's what I'm telling myself. I hope he feels dirty for being with her, she's a total rebound. Right? Whatever, it doesn't really matter, point is, I refuse to settle for someone who obviously felt as though he was settling for me. I want someone who WANTS me.
It's cool though, I honestly have a lot to do with myself, I'll be too distracted to think of him. I leave for Cali on Sunday, get 10 days of fun in the sun with friends and when I come back, I'll have so much to do I'll be too busy to remember I'm heartbroken.
It's cool though, I honestly have a lot to do with myself, I'll be too distracted to think of him. I leave for Cali on Sunday, get 10 days of fun in the sun with friends and when I come back, I'll have so much to do I'll be too busy to remember I'm heartbroken.