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lately, i feel like i'm all by myself. no one cares about me as much as they used to. i feel like i don't have any close friends anymore. there are some that i do consider close and maybe even best but when i cry myself to sleep and seriously feel like i can't call anyone, because they are sick of hearing about how stupid i am just makes the feeling of being alone ten times worse. i seriously feel like i'm losing everyone and i don't want that to happen.
there has been one person in my life lately, who has just turned my life around and can make me smile at any given moment, but even he makes me feel like he doesn't care anymore. i sadly can say i think i'm falling in love with him, and i don't think even saying that to him can make him do things differently. i have straight up told him that too and he has done nothing to make me think he cares at all. i don't know what to do. this is one of the main people that i DON'T want to lose, i don't want this amazing relationship we've had for about four months now, just end like that. i would probably try to hurt myself in ways that are so unreal i can't even begin to acutally think about them but i know without him i wouldn't be myself at all. i would just be ten times more depressed than i already am.
lately, i feel like i don't have a best friend. but even the main one i ever have even considered things are just weird with us. i don't feel like i can tell her everything like we used to all the time, everyday. shit it's been like a couple weeks since i've acutually hung out with her. yeah, myspace talk is nice and everything just to know you're still there for each other but when i see that she cries and stuff makes me want to know why she isn't telling me why anymore, why can't we just be how we used to be. hang out like every weekend and stuff. it's just sad.
i don't know what to do with myself. :[
i think i need help.
there has been one person in my life lately, who has just turned my life around and can make me smile at any given moment, but even he makes me feel like he doesn't care anymore. i sadly can say i think i'm falling in love with him, and i don't think even saying that to him can make him do things differently. i have straight up told him that too and he has done nothing to make me think he cares at all. i don't know what to do. this is one of the main people that i DON'T want to lose, i don't want this amazing relationship we've had for about four months now, just end like that. i would probably try to hurt myself in ways that are so unreal i can't even begin to acutally think about them but i know without him i wouldn't be myself at all. i would just be ten times more depressed than i already am.
lately, i feel like i don't have a best friend. but even the main one i ever have even considered things are just weird with us. i don't feel like i can tell her everything like we used to all the time, everyday. shit it's been like a couple weeks since i've acutually hung out with her. yeah, myspace talk is nice and everything just to know you're still there for each other but when i see that she cries and stuff makes me want to know why she isn't telling me why anymore, why can't we just be how we used to be. hang out like every weekend and stuff. it's just sad.
i don't know what to do with myself. :[
i think i need help.