One year down... Forever happily to go...
Today is my one year anniversary. Aaron and I got married last year on this day in Chicago, IL. He makes me so happy and I am constantly thankful for having found him. I have a lot of problems staying strong (yeah I know I seem bad-ass, but...) but he always helps me to. Whenever I think that I can't keep going or my world is going to end (even if it is for the most ridiculous of reasons) he tells me how strong he knows I am. He tells me that I am wonderful and that I can do anything. Then on top of it he tells me I am beautiful just to make me feel good. As a matter of fact, I thought about our anniversary two days ago but didn't remember earlier today and he called me first to tell me, "Happy Anniversary". Actually he said, "Do you know what today is?" and I said "No. What?" Ummmm. He's freaking awesome. He told me that this past year has been so wonderful and that he can't really imagine how it could be better. Which is super sweet because he knows it would be better if I didn't freak out here and there. He truly is the breast! Uh.. I mean... the best!
So, on to other things. I have thought of my first non-me (well sort of because it still encompasses me beliefs, of course, or lack there of) issue to talk about. I don't believe in God. I am not really sure what I believe. I believe in certain morals and values, like you'll get what you give, what goes around comes around, that you should help people in general because it is just the right thing to do, that you should not judge. I believe in forgiveness, even though I am not the best at it, I try really. I actually have the hardest time forgiving myself. Anyway, these are all just beliefs about the way to live life. Not a greater being. I guess if I had to say that I believed in some sort of creation theory or how or why we are here I would be scientifically minded. As far as I am concerned I was born from a sperm and egg and when I die that is it. My brain will stop functioning. I am sure that to the religiously faithful this may seem like a lack of hope because I am not hoping for something better than this life, but I don't see what is so wrong with this life. I am not always so happy with myself personally but I see humanity and an excellent existence on Earth as something to hope for, a reason to keep going. This life present opportunities for learning, seeing, smelling, feeling, touching, hearing, experiencing, reaching out, camaraderie, love... this list goes on and on. I didn't even mention all the simply fun stuff to do. To me the chance to make yourself better and to grow as a human is something to hope for. That the next day I have the chance to live an even better and more satisfying life. I am impressed and touched by the opportunities that Earth presents. I will not disregard the fact of a place before this life or after this life but I will have to wait until this life is over to see it or believe it. I know some religious folks believe that if you don't "believe" before you pass that there is no hope for heaven as they call it or forgiveness deemed required to be accepted into such a place. I had a friend (a couple actually but I spoke my views to only one) that was nervous for me because I didn't believe in God and couldn't believe that I didn't. I first said to her that I could never imagine thinking it was crazy not to believe in God, or any religious views. I feel that religion is something that people create to know how to live and to explain the unexplainable, the mysteries of life, the unknown, the... intimidating. I said to this friend, "No, I don't believe in God, and I should hope that if He does exist He will not be narcissistic enough to accept me into Heaven based only on whether or not I believe in Him. That is if He is as wonderful as everyone who loves Him thinks he is." I am sure that she still believes in God, but I do think she now understands how I am able not to. I do appreciate being Thankful or simply hoping that something or someone will be alright (I especially appreciate being Thankful) but I do not need to pray to something certain and I don't need the unknown to discuss my problems with. I have my extra special friends and family for that. I feel that life is pretty much a game of chance. Unless one acts extra stupid and then they have the ability to change the odds.
Anyway, where I was going with this, and maybe some Christians (or maybe some other faithful people) could reply and explain how they view this. I am willing to consider other ideas. I do not understand Thanking God for things in peoples' lives. I have had multiple friends lately thank God for things like someone helping them out in a crisis, finding a new job, visions for their art works... I do not understand why the people aren't thanked. Why wouldn't you think it was just the goodness of the being that was there for you and be thankful for their generosity and their kind-heartedness and think that maybe it did come from them (because they care for you) or give yourself credit for finding a job and being capable or coming up with an idea for a painting or drawing and being creative. I am worried that with all this thanking God good humans don't get the credit they deserve. I believe that a lack of faith in humanity leads to negative things, like more people acting like those you would lack faith in.
I have something else I want to discuss... A pamphlet someone left on my car that really pissed me off. I will have to gather my thoughts on it and get back to my audience on this one (you know of like five million daily blog readers). For now I have some mad pumpkin carving to do. Yeah yeah yeah... After Halloween, blah blah blah, I know. To me pumpkins (unless carved spookily) are simply a fall decoration.
Peace out.
So, on to other things. I have thought of my first non-me (well sort of because it still encompasses me beliefs, of course, or lack there of) issue to talk about. I don't believe in God. I am not really sure what I believe. I believe in certain morals and values, like you'll get what you give, what goes around comes around, that you should help people in general because it is just the right thing to do, that you should not judge. I believe in forgiveness, even though I am not the best at it, I try really. I actually have the hardest time forgiving myself. Anyway, these are all just beliefs about the way to live life. Not a greater being. I guess if I had to say that I believed in some sort of creation theory or how or why we are here I would be scientifically minded. As far as I am concerned I was born from a sperm and egg and when I die that is it. My brain will stop functioning. I am sure that to the religiously faithful this may seem like a lack of hope because I am not hoping for something better than this life, but I don't see what is so wrong with this life. I am not always so happy with myself personally but I see humanity and an excellent existence on Earth as something to hope for, a reason to keep going. This life present opportunities for learning, seeing, smelling, feeling, touching, hearing, experiencing, reaching out, camaraderie, love... this list goes on and on. I didn't even mention all the simply fun stuff to do. To me the chance to make yourself better and to grow as a human is something to hope for. That the next day I have the chance to live an even better and more satisfying life. I am impressed and touched by the opportunities that Earth presents. I will not disregard the fact of a place before this life or after this life but I will have to wait until this life is over to see it or believe it. I know some religious folks believe that if you don't "believe" before you pass that there is no hope for heaven as they call it or forgiveness deemed required to be accepted into such a place. I had a friend (a couple actually but I spoke my views to only one) that was nervous for me because I didn't believe in God and couldn't believe that I didn't. I first said to her that I could never imagine thinking it was crazy not to believe in God, or any religious views. I feel that religion is something that people create to know how to live and to explain the unexplainable, the mysteries of life, the unknown, the... intimidating. I said to this friend, "No, I don't believe in God, and I should hope that if He does exist He will not be narcissistic enough to accept me into Heaven based only on whether or not I believe in Him. That is if He is as wonderful as everyone who loves Him thinks he is." I am sure that she still believes in God, but I do think she now understands how I am able not to. I do appreciate being Thankful or simply hoping that something or someone will be alright (I especially appreciate being Thankful) but I do not need to pray to something certain and I don't need the unknown to discuss my problems with. I have my extra special friends and family for that. I feel that life is pretty much a game of chance. Unless one acts extra stupid and then they have the ability to change the odds.
Anyway, where I was going with this, and maybe some Christians (or maybe some other faithful people) could reply and explain how they view this. I am willing to consider other ideas. I do not understand Thanking God for things in peoples' lives. I have had multiple friends lately thank God for things like someone helping them out in a crisis, finding a new job, visions for their art works... I do not understand why the people aren't thanked. Why wouldn't you think it was just the goodness of the being that was there for you and be thankful for their generosity and their kind-heartedness and think that maybe it did come from them (because they care for you) or give yourself credit for finding a job and being capable or coming up with an idea for a painting or drawing and being creative. I am worried that with all this thanking God good humans don't get the credit they deserve. I believe that a lack of faith in humanity leads to negative things, like more people acting like those you would lack faith in.
I have something else I want to discuss... A pamphlet someone left on my car that really pissed me off. I will have to gather my thoughts on it and get back to my audience on this one (you know of like five million daily blog readers). For now I have some mad pumpkin carving to do. Yeah yeah yeah... After Halloween, blah blah blah, I know. To me pumpkins (unless carved spookily) are simply a fall decoration.
Peace out.