guh yesterday and today
Hey its been awhile. but hey wut can i say im not a big internet fan of updating entrys. neways soo yesterday i did something i never thought i would do in my life. i asked alex out. only thing is i got his message thingy from his cell so i asked him out over that. and s0o0o0o far i havent gotten an answer. i think it may because he was working like usual. but i dont know. what i do know is ive never felt this way about any guy. there's something about him. he's the funnest to be around outta all the guys. Even when were not talking or anything and just sitting there being bored i dont mind it im just glad i get to see him and see how he's doing. but im really nervous about how he's gunna react. i personally think he's too good for me. the people i know tell me not to think that way tho..so i dont know. Lauren told me he wasnt and that there's no reason for him not to maybe like me because im pretty.nice.fun. but still..just the fact he hasnt gotten back to me yet makes me think he doesnt want to. o well. but see the thing is..i dont care if u know if he did say yes ..well i do but see the thing is i just want to be around him cause i always have a good time it doesnt matter. but i think he's really busy it seems with work and skewl. i miss him alot. it really sucks not seeing him as much. him and lauren made mt top worth going as well as myra. but i guess he's changed...like the people said who worked there when you leave you'll probly lose the mt.top experience and stuff. and it seems like thats happened cause during the summer and stuff i thought we had became really close good friends but i guess i was wrong. again. i just wish i could've told him i liked him earlier maybe that one day during the summer i had planned to. but i guess this was gunna happen. but then i think he didnt get my message because today tyler told me he and alex talked at lunch and he didnt say anything about it. or maybe he just didnt wanna. guhhh. i thought myra changed me and she has with my self esteem and everything but the only thing i havent overcome is being honest and telling people the way i feel about them. hint g0o0o0osh u guys have no idea how frustrating this is. well tomorrow im either going to the beach at least thats one good thing thats happening..or if not that im going to call lauren to see if we can hangout like we did last week or hangout with kaylyn. lol tonite was sooo funny gurly haha we both fell lol. and then today at skewl rayna! geese i didnt see you running up to hug me that was funny tho. lol aww i luv u gurly! im so0o0 happy we have more classes together this year! yey! but im gunna go now and just see if he even cares to call me back. ive heard from *sum* people he has been acting differently lately as if he's to good for alot of his friends? i didnt wanna say this but now im started to think thats true. o well. ill talk to all u guys later. o yea im happy! my birthdays in a month. haha i still havent given alex his bday present when was it? like august 28th <..im sure he probly doesnt want it tho..> lol but yea neways im getting a job! YeAHyEaH immm sooo happy! in less than a month baby! w00t. lol. i know it sounds really dumb but ive been wanting one. lately ever since as long as i can remember lol. i hate being at my house. and i hate cramming on my mom for cash i hate it. even tho i dont ask for much its still not right to me. hopefully it will be somewhere i wanna work. i kinda wanna work at like a restaurant. like bennigans or sumthing. or maybe sumwhere where there's alotta people like maybe the mall. but the malls annoying so i dont know. i was talking to this guy in pacsun though and he said he'd give me an application haha funny thing is that was like a month ago he thought i was like 16 or sumthing already lol. but i cant wait. also when i get my permit im gunna be allowed to drive. my mutha's letting me drive like bot you know far distances but like to church and the mall and wal*mart hehe cause im like 2 minutes from there lol. well ill ttyl. only thing that sucks is i wont be able to wear my jacket if i get a job.