oh man
im starting to have feelings for this certain awesome guy :]
ohhhh great. I dont know if i should though, i mean i just broke it off with aaron..But yeah.
One main reason i broke up with aaron was because he just didnt get me and i didnt feel the way he did towards me. But MAINLY it was mostly because i hadnt known him enough before we went out. Funny how you realise something when its already said and done with. I mean i just started noticing this about myself. Im not big into developing a relationship thats completely random, where i dont know that much about the guy..
Also, ive really been trying to have a stronger bond with jesus christ. I also thought i was a pretty good christian* but ive discovered theres alot more to it than it seems. I dont want to be just a believer, i really want to develop and intense relationship with jesus christ, one where i can do anything and everything i set my mind to through him. Most guy friends i know arent really like that; & its complicated when you just want to find that someone out there whos at the same level as you, and also goes by the same morals. For example i DEFLY am staying a virgin until im married, i dont drink (& i probly never will), i dont smoke or do drugs, im pretty what they call "straightedge?" which is totally fine with me, but with most of my friends they think its stupid..its just hard you know? peer pressure does suck, even when you dont give in you face losing alot of your friends. Ive also decided i dont want to be old when i get married, my mom told me young marraiges are quite hard to keep together, but im my opinion i think if i found the right guy, a die-hard christian who respected me and my beliefs, it wouldnt be "impossible".
ive seen alot of people get married when they were around 20, and thats the age i think would be awesome for me.
i have no idea why im talking about marriage haha but i gotta go, im in photo like alwaysssss and im missing out!
ohhhh great. I dont know if i should though, i mean i just broke it off with aaron..But yeah.
One main reason i broke up with aaron was because he just didnt get me and i didnt feel the way he did towards me. But MAINLY it was mostly because i hadnt known him enough before we went out. Funny how you realise something when its already said and done with. I mean i just started noticing this about myself. Im not big into developing a relationship thats completely random, where i dont know that much about the guy..
Also, ive really been trying to have a stronger bond with jesus christ. I also thought i was a pretty good christian* but ive discovered theres alot more to it than it seems. I dont want to be just a believer, i really want to develop and intense relationship with jesus christ, one where i can do anything and everything i set my mind to through him. Most guy friends i know arent really like that; & its complicated when you just want to find that someone out there whos at the same level as you, and also goes by the same morals. For example i DEFLY am staying a virgin until im married, i dont drink (& i probly never will), i dont smoke or do drugs, im pretty what they call "straightedge?" which is totally fine with me, but with most of my friends they think its stupid..its just hard you know? peer pressure does suck, even when you dont give in you face losing alot of your friends. Ive also decided i dont want to be old when i get married, my mom told me young marraiges are quite hard to keep together, but im my opinion i think if i found the right guy, a die-hard christian who respected me and my beliefs, it wouldnt be "impossible".
ive seen alot of people get married when they were around 20, and thats the age i think would be awesome for me.
i have no idea why im talking about marriage haha but i gotta go, im in photo like alwaysssss and im missing out!