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omg as if my life can't get worse, i've lost my best friend for the next 4 years. watching ryan leave for the marines was one of the hardest things i've had to deal with in a long time. i didn't even care as i cried in front of forty people, that's how emotional i felt. its not as if everyone else wasn't sad either. shaking his dads hand and saying you've got a great son brought tears to ricks eyes as well. it takes a strong person to leave so much behind like he did. ryan gilbert lopez, this goes out to you. you will never read this, but know that i care about you like family. you are a part of the richards family. i know we'll keep in touch but... i feel as if i am completly alone now. i literally have no friends, no one to hang out with, be real with, i feel like i have no one. i am destined to either join myself or just deal with this empty feeling i feel i have all the time. i really need to evaluate my situation with my life and everyone around me.