broken heart.
i feel so alone. so pathetic - like i have no life anymore.. though im out constantly doing things. i think about u prob. 75% of my day. i love you.. theres just no other way to put it. but..shit happens. its hard to even think that you and i could've have a future together. and then i see u at the mall and it hits me. like...whoah. i fucking cant take it! i love him so much. have you ever loved somebody so much that they're the only thing that ever crosses your mind? that when you wake up in the morning, you cant wait till you see them.. if you do. and every night, you go to sleep wondering where the hell he was all day or what hes doing and thinking about now. or who he's replaced with your name when he says 'i love you so much' ----> its sad because i dont even take the time to tell myself the truth. to take the time to think about where he really is.. or what hes REALLY thinking about, realizing that he isnt thinking about me.. or anything at all. when you blow out your candles on your birthday cake - you prob. wish for a new cd or something so surreal.. i wished for you. and then you broke my heart in two. and whats sad is that even though i can almost feel that you dont love me as much as you clAim you do, i still find it in my heart to have feelings for you stronger than i have ever had for anyone in my life. i know how parents say you could never be in love at such a young age when everytime i see or speak to you, i fall in love with you all over again. i love you with every breath i take and with every shining star in the sky.. i just know that i could never be in love with anyone again as much as i was in love with you. i hope you read this. your breaking my heart....