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I think I will back off of myspace.
Lately I have been having many people I do not know tell me that I am so funny, or attractive, or even "gorgeous," and I feel almost like I'm accidentally tricking them into thinking such things.
I guess that's sometimes the point of the internet. Tricking strangers into half-friendships.
I don't want to be tricking anybody. Intentionally or not.
I tell those people that I am awkward and my face gets flushed when I get embarassed (which happens often) and I use fake tan in a bottle to get rid of my farmer's tan and I'm terrible at math and I have a big bump in my nose and I'm greedy and when I'm adamant about a friendship or a relationship I get too clingy and I worry a lot and I'm scared of too much and I'm confused often and I cannot get my head on straight and I'm starved for affection and etc.
I'm nuts.
Lately I have been having many people I do not know tell me that I am so funny, or attractive, or even "gorgeous," and I feel almost like I'm accidentally tricking them into thinking such things.
I guess that's sometimes the point of the internet. Tricking strangers into half-friendships.
I don't want to be tricking anybody. Intentionally or not.
I tell those people that I am awkward and my face gets flushed when I get embarassed (which happens often) and I use fake tan in a bottle to get rid of my farmer's tan and I'm terrible at math and I have a big bump in my nose and I'm greedy and when I'm adamant about a friendship or a relationship I get too clingy and I worry a lot and I'm scared of too much and I'm confused often and I cannot get my head on straight and I'm starved for affection and etc.
I'm nuts.