Dreams
Had an interesting dream a few days ago, and today. Let's begin with the former of the two.
I was standing on the front porch of a house with someone, a friend I think, and it felt as if the air pressure had dropped. It was very odd. I look at the sky to the right and noticed the clouds (no blue sky to be seen) were moving very quickly. I then looked to the left and saw that the clouds were also moving fast, but in a different direction which was baffling. It hit me that they were actually going in a circular fashion, as if a tornado were forming. Lo and behold to my right the clouds suddenly funneled and hit the ground hard and I and my friend immediately felt as if we were being pulled towards the tornado-thing. We slow-motion struggled our way into the house. And that's where that dream ended. Odd, but notable because of the extremely real feeling there on the porch, when the pressure dropped. Premonition?
The other dream I had today was that I lived in a huge mansion/castle thing, which was actually a very complex labyrinth that only I knew how to get through. Very interesting exploring the place in my mind. That's the house I want to live in. But then my mom woke me up, and pissed me off. Apparently 1pm is not an acceptable rising time in this house. Gah.
I hate being 16. I don't KNOW anything, and the thought of me moving out and going to college, or getting a job, living in my own place.. The future fucking scares the shit out of me. I don't want to grow up, I want to be 12, and living in the apartments again, running around in the woods like a goddamn moron with my stupid friends. I just don't know what I'm going to do.
Further my drawing skills, go to an art college? How could I possibly make enough money to survive just doing that? And veterinary college, goddamn 7 years nearly. I wouldn't be able to make it through... It's so confusing, I don't know what I'm supposed to do past high school, I barely know how to handle my life right now. I can't see myself past 20 years old. Will I even be alive past that age? So many goddamn questions and my magic 8 ball no longer has the answers.
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I was standing on the front porch of a house with someone, a friend I think, and it felt as if the air pressure had dropped. It was very odd. I look at the sky to the right and noticed the clouds (no blue sky to be seen) were moving very quickly. I then looked to the left and saw that the clouds were also moving fast, but in a different direction which was baffling. It hit me that they were actually going in a circular fashion, as if a tornado were forming. Lo and behold to my right the clouds suddenly funneled and hit the ground hard and I and my friend immediately felt as if we were being pulled towards the tornado-thing. We slow-motion struggled our way into the house. And that's where that dream ended. Odd, but notable because of the extremely real feeling there on the porch, when the pressure dropped. Premonition?
The other dream I had today was that I lived in a huge mansion/castle thing, which was actually a very complex labyrinth that only I knew how to get through. Very interesting exploring the place in my mind. That's the house I want to live in. But then my mom woke me up, and pissed me off. Apparently 1pm is not an acceptable rising time in this house. Gah.
I hate being 16. I don't KNOW anything, and the thought of me moving out and going to college, or getting a job, living in my own place.. The future fucking scares the shit out of me. I don't want to grow up, I want to be 12, and living in the apartments again, running around in the woods like a goddamn moron with my stupid friends. I just don't know what I'm going to do.
Further my drawing skills, go to an art college? How could I possibly make enough money to survive just doing that? And veterinary college, goddamn 7 years nearly. I wouldn't be able to make it through... It's so confusing, I don't know what I'm supposed to do past high school, I barely know how to handle my life right now. I can't see myself past 20 years old. Will I even be alive past that age? So many goddamn questions and my magic 8 ball no longer has the answers.
REPLY HAZY TRY AGAIN