I feel much better
Well, I went into the bosses office today and told him that I was in serious need of a mental health vacation. His initial reaction was to tell me that we were short handed right now and it was not feasable at this time. So I then informed him that I was about one minute away from leaving permanently and if he couldnt help me he was going to be short on more paramedic. This seemed to get through and I am now officially on vacation. I feel mech better!