still the same

[crashbug]

Even though I am now about 3 hours from the area i've called home for ten years, nothing has really changed from a month ago. Same shit different day. Even though i am happy down here for the most part I miss being close to those that mean the most to me. I miss working with the people i did. I love being able to pick up my phone and call everyone when i feel like i'm gonna crack. I love driving my sisters car and hangin at the bowling alley with my boyfriend and John, the biggest smartass I've ever met. but i hate having to deal with new people that don't want to do their jobs and can't speak english. I enjoy being basically right around the corner from every place i want to go. I have enjoyed my time off but now i'm ready to go back and i can't because of damn foreigners that don't want to do their jobs. I feel like going over to my uncles to see my cousin and her new baby but i don't know if my car will start. I'd take my sisters but if i have anything to say about it, it ain't going anywhere until tomorrow when it goes for it's well overdue oil change. I wish we could figure out what's wrong with her. I hate seeing her like this and not being able to work. Hopefully when we go to her appointment on friday they will be able to tell us something. Question of the day: Why does it seem that I'm still stuck in the middle. I don't mind helping my best friends solve their problems but I hate it when the past comes up and i end up stuck in the middle.

Ugg, I'm gonna go do something.