a needle in flesh.

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piercing my arm last night was absolutly incredible. the feel of it is something ive never felt before. its different that piercing your ear.. or nose.. or nipple. everything has its own feel and this feel was amazing. it brought on a tingle in my toes and stars to my eyes. the pain was nothing i havent felt before.. but in that same way it was unique. energizing. it made me light headed and drunk with an endorphine rush. its amazing to be able to do this to your body. to claim it as your own. its a different experience. it didnt remind me of anything i've done it the past. no piercing could ever compare to this one. oh my goddess. its was like the need captured my hatred i had for my body and drove it out. i felt more myself afterwards. calm. happy. it was nothing like cutting. cutting brings the anger inward. brings on the depression. oh my. piercing is my love.
oh wow.