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ummm, i guess that this is more of a journal entry than a blog post, so i suppose i'll put it in a cut, as it is kind of long, and more personal than most people care to read.
ok. so... i had my first "ethical dilemma" of my mit career. it's rush for the frats, and i was kinda being courted by two. so free dinners, go-karting, paintball, all that stuff. but i came to the conclusion that i didn't really want to join a frat. yet, i felt bad turning down these guys just because they were recruiting me to be part of a frat. it would be like turning down an invite to play halo just because i didn't want to be part of mastersingers. however, it also felt as if i were playing the frats simply to get free stuff. like a girl going out on dates with a guy even when she fully intends on being "just friends". so, i talked to my moral compass and decided that it would be best to simply let them know my intentions and not attend any more events. so i let the two frat's know. quasi-awkward conversations each, as one was turning down an invitiation-only surf and turf dinner later that night. (my moral compass said that ethics can sometimes be expensive) so that was my ethical dilemma. problems still to come
so, on the phone, both contacts were cool with it. the contacts were simply the guys i had become closest with over the process of getting to know their respective frats. one i just met last week, so that was ok. the other was this guy that i've known for a while, not a long while, but a while wrt my time in college.just an absolutely great guy, so i felt really bad turning him down. anyway, later, he still offered to loan me his freshman textbooks and even to drop them off, which i guess just goes to show what kind of person he is. anyway, so he just came over, and we talked a while about the whole situation, and he tried to understand what my reservations are. unfortunately, those are kind of hard to explain, as it's more of a personality thing than anything else. i mean, i'm not ruling out the possibility that, later on down the line, i might join, but it's not for me now. but it was so hard to explain to him, because he feels really strongly about the benefits that his fraternity has. he also really wanted me to join since we see eye to eye on a lot of things. he told me that he was kind of devastated when i called him earlier, which made me feel kind of terrible in an odd sort of way. anyway, he finally accepted that it's just not going to happen now, and he let me know that i'm still always welcome at the house and all that. and now i feel like wendy in never neverland, hanging out with all the lost boys. i really enjoy their company, and they want me to stay, but i just can't. i just don't belong there. but i'm probably going to spend a good amount of time there anyway. so it'll turn out ok, right? yeah. it will.
first day of classes today. good times.
ok. so... i had my first "ethical dilemma" of my mit career. it's rush for the frats, and i was kinda being courted by two. so free dinners, go-karting, paintball, all that stuff. but i came to the conclusion that i didn't really want to join a frat. yet, i felt bad turning down these guys just because they were recruiting me to be part of a frat. it would be like turning down an invite to play halo just because i didn't want to be part of mastersingers. however, it also felt as if i were playing the frats simply to get free stuff. like a girl going out on dates with a guy even when she fully intends on being "just friends". so, i talked to my moral compass and decided that it would be best to simply let them know my intentions and not attend any more events. so i let the two frat's know. quasi-awkward conversations each, as one was turning down an invitiation-only surf and turf dinner later that night. (my moral compass said that ethics can sometimes be expensive) so that was my ethical dilemma. problems still to come
so, on the phone, both contacts were cool with it. the contacts were simply the guys i had become closest with over the process of getting to know their respective frats. one i just met last week, so that was ok. the other was this guy that i've known for a while, not a long while, but a while wrt my time in college.just an absolutely great guy, so i felt really bad turning him down. anyway, later, he still offered to loan me his freshman textbooks and even to drop them off, which i guess just goes to show what kind of person he is. anyway, so he just came over, and we talked a while about the whole situation, and he tried to understand what my reservations are. unfortunately, those are kind of hard to explain, as it's more of a personality thing than anything else. i mean, i'm not ruling out the possibility that, later on down the line, i might join, but it's not for me now. but it was so hard to explain to him, because he feels really strongly about the benefits that his fraternity has. he also really wanted me to join since we see eye to eye on a lot of things. he told me that he was kind of devastated when i called him earlier, which made me feel kind of terrible in an odd sort of way. anyway, he finally accepted that it's just not going to happen now, and he let me know that i'm still always welcome at the house and all that. and now i feel like wendy in never neverland, hanging out with all the lost boys. i really enjoy their company, and they want me to stay, but i just can't. i just don't belong there. but i'm probably going to spend a good amount of time there anyway. so it'll turn out ok, right? yeah. it will.
first day of classes today. good times.