To be 10 again.
I DID IT!!
I took the bull by the horns!
I kicked my own cowardly ass!!
I did what I never thought I could do!!!!
I wrote a note and put it in his mailbox when he wasn't around.
OK.
Maybe it's not as brave as I would have liked to have been, but this is a big step for me!
I don't really show my emotions very often. In fact, I have one of three expressions on my face at any given time. 1) downtrodden/morose 2) content 3) jovial/maniacal. So for me to bare my heart to someone is pretty brave, even if only in writing.
Anyway, this was yesterday, and I gave him the benefit that no one really checks their mail on Sundays. However, today is Monday and one would THINK he'd check his mail today. God knows I don't check mine all that often, but now the countdown and wondering window has opened. If he's read it, he's probably terrified about how to respond to my psychoticness.
But really, I just told him I couldn't tell if he wanted to be friends or more than friends and that I would prefer the latter and to tell him this was relieving a great burden from my shoulders. I just hope I haven't scared him away.
The thing is, he's been pretty distant for more than a week now, and this started about 5 days before i got his letter.
I hate this shit. I feel like I'm 10.
Now every time the phone rings I get pins and needles all over myself.
I'm almost tempted to go see if he's checked his mail.
I took the bull by the horns!
I kicked my own cowardly ass!!
I did what I never thought I could do!!!!
I wrote a note and put it in his mailbox when he wasn't around.
OK.
Maybe it's not as brave as I would have liked to have been, but this is a big step for me!
I don't really show my emotions very often. In fact, I have one of three expressions on my face at any given time. 1) downtrodden/morose 2) content 3) jovial/maniacal. So for me to bare my heart to someone is pretty brave, even if only in writing.
Anyway, this was yesterday, and I gave him the benefit that no one really checks their mail on Sundays. However, today is Monday and one would THINK he'd check his mail today. God knows I don't check mine all that often, but now the countdown and wondering window has opened. If he's read it, he's probably terrified about how to respond to my psychoticness.
But really, I just told him I couldn't tell if he wanted to be friends or more than friends and that I would prefer the latter and to tell him this was relieving a great burden from my shoulders. I just hope I haven't scared him away.
The thing is, he's been pretty distant for more than a week now, and this started about 5 days before i got his letter.
I hate this shit. I feel like I'm 10.
Now every time the phone rings I get pins and needles all over myself.
I'm almost tempted to go see if he's checked his mail.