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I have no problem with Sarah going out and partying or having fun with her friends at all. I just hate it when shit like this happens.
So, Sarah went out to some huge Halloween street party tonight with one of her friends. I didn't go for two reasons: a) we couldn't afford for me to go even though I just sold all of my shit for money and b) I absolutely hate the guy she went with.
Anyway, She left at 9 tonight, and got back at two (It's daylight savings time so the clock said 1:00 but whatever) totally smashed. I'm not mad, really, just upset...
She drove home from her friends house trashed, which is fucking stupid, not to mention she said she wouldn't drink. I really don't care if she drinks, I don't. But, don't drive. You could die.
So, she gets home, and, like always, she wants sex. Any time she comes home drunk, sex is like the only thing on her mind, which I guess isn't a bad thing, but it makes me feel like my job is to wait at home for her so I can have sex with her when she gets back. Keep in mind I've had an absolutely horrible day which was capped off by spending 5 hours alone while she went out and partied. Now, I love having sex with her, but I hate how she comes home drunk and only wants sex and thinks that sloppy drunken sex is going to make me feel better. I never thought I'd say this, considering my libido, but it just makes me feel like a piece of meat.
I just...
I don't know. I'm not even sure why I'm upset. I don't care if she wants to go out and have fun, but it would be nice if... I don't know. I'm just bitching, there's no point to it.
I guess I feel like I don't matter or something. I don't know.
So, Sarah went out to some huge Halloween street party tonight with one of her friends. I didn't go for two reasons: a) we couldn't afford for me to go even though I just sold all of my shit for money and b) I absolutely hate the guy she went with.
Anyway, She left at 9 tonight, and got back at two (It's daylight savings time so the clock said 1:00 but whatever) totally smashed. I'm not mad, really, just upset...
She drove home from her friends house trashed, which is fucking stupid, not to mention she said she wouldn't drink. I really don't care if she drinks, I don't. But, don't drive. You could die.
So, she gets home, and, like always, she wants sex. Any time she comes home drunk, sex is like the only thing on her mind, which I guess isn't a bad thing, but it makes me feel like my job is to wait at home for her so I can have sex with her when she gets back. Keep in mind I've had an absolutely horrible day which was capped off by spending 5 hours alone while she went out and partied. Now, I love having sex with her, but I hate how she comes home drunk and only wants sex and thinks that sloppy drunken sex is going to make me feel better. I never thought I'd say this, considering my libido, but it just makes me feel like a piece of meat.
I just...
I don't know. I'm not even sure why I'm upset. I don't care if she wants to go out and have fun, but it would be nice if... I don't know. I'm just bitching, there's no point to it.
I guess I feel like I don't matter or something. I don't know.