The Glass House Is Burning Down
Yesterdays unposted entry.
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Today stopped and said hi to my friend Megan, talked about things like the married or engaged girl, what ever she is now.
Talked about things I posted last LJ.
She made me a free drink too, she so kind.
Later on I talked to an old friend how I have past feelings for on the phone and I swear I could hear an uncertainty in her voice about things.
And she called a person a life form and I can’t help but think how shallow that sounds.
She almost sounds convinced that she found what she wants.
I wish, I really new what I wanted more then this…
I really dislike my brother’s girlfriend and told her that. Well I told her more like this, “I don’t fucking like you”. LOL I’m a jerk.
Never know but nothing less
Couldn't see that I have guessed
Couldn't see, couldn't stay away
I never even stopped to dream and
That Id see anything and
The world is coming out so cold
Oh, and it's raining again
Light on your car light, bullets on tin
Oh, and its raining again
Open the door and pulling me in
Nothing here but nothing less
Cold heart is stuck in this
Couldn't say the kindest words we knew
Everything I tried to say but
no one listens anyway
I had to give up all that I knew
Oh, and it's raining again
Light on your car light, bullets on tin
Oh, and its raining again
Open the door and pulling me in
Oh, and it's raining
Raining again
Oh, and it's raining
Raining again
Nothing here but nothing less
Everything we both regret
Couldn't say the kindest words we knew
Cause it was winter time and
We wanted some more time and
We watched the girls try something knew
We didn't even stopped to see that
That It was breaking me and
the world is coming out so cold
What you want you couldn't get, you
Couldn't wait for something less, you
had to give up everything you knew
Oh, and it's raining again
Light on your car light, bullets on tin
Oh, and its raining again
Open the door and pulling me in
Sadness like water raining down
Raining down, raining down, raining down
Oh, and it's raining
Raining again
Oh, and it's raining
Raining again
- Moby / hotel / Raining again
Today’s LJ entry
Well I spoke with a friend Glen today and in this talk I realized I was so serous about things and after a minute of thinking I started thinking, “am I becoming much mature about life and the way things are?” Really He wanted to know if I had any story about lesbians, Drag queens, or people peeing in a crisper.
I filled him in on current events and the things I’m thinking and feelings and I realized I was most serous when I was talking and I felt like I made complete since with full sincerity. I want to have my moment to try to talk her out of it, and I’m convinced that I won’t be able to not convince her but I’d hate my self if I didn’t try.
Let’s just say the scenario is this.
You have a kid some where around the age of 3 or 4.
Your mom doesn’t work and in the past been having seizure.
You never had a job and haven’t been having luck finding one.
You seem to hook up with some one new every three months after a break up of a romance kind of thing.
And now you’re thinking about moving 3,000 miles away to be with some guy online.
Thoughts
- I would guess you are thinking you could run away from this mess of a life.
- You think that you could find so much more then you can here.
- Searching for every thing in all the wrong places.
This is my concern, I’m worried that this trust is coming too freely with her; I would warn her to watch her self.
Trust is being given to easily and I think that it’s cause for a disappointment. I’m afraid that she’ll get there and after seeing different sides of this person that she’s never seen that she would have got her self in a situation that she would have a hard time to get a escape. People are not like a one sided shinny quarter.
My thoughts and fears go on, and sure you might think I have no say and I shouldn’t be concern, but when I for some reason care and always have I just can’t let this slide…
We’re gonna die like this you know
All miserable and old…
Really gotta hand it to you
Because if you’re positive
I mean absolutely sure…
Then get dressed
Don’t do this
Who in their right mind would wish this on anyone?
Don’t do this…
- Taking Back Sunday / Where You Want To Be / Number Five With A Bullet