Things just keep getting better
Alright, alright...figured it was time for an update. Nothing much has been going on except bidding my time until my new job starts. Still got two weeks to go and counting. When you have been out of work for so long, its killer to have to wait even more until the fun starts. I just know that once I start working, I will miss these days of sleeping till 8 and hanging all day. But I like to be busy and have fun, and well sometimes, you do need a lil extra cash to have additional fun. Pluse I have been anxious to meet new people, do new things, have new experiences. Its my turn, baby...Jackie is about to be unleashed. :P
If you haven't already figured it out, I definitely have been in a better mood recently. The job definitely doesn't make the person but it definitely makes the person a lil happier. One thing I have been doing is working on myself personally through all this ordeal. I have lost the sense of who I am and what my passions are. I started the counseling and that has helped alot, not in the sense of someone telling me what to do, but in the sense of its an unbiased person to chat with and let my feelings out. There are things that I would think no one would understand but she does, part of it is her job but either way, its nice to feel accepted and to actually feel a lil bit normal. Not that I ever will be normal, I know I never will be cause I do pride myself in not being your normal gal. My roommate and I have this joke going on. We both love swords and unique weapons especially if they come from Lord of the Rings. She recently bought "Sting" and we have been making plans to expand our collection and proudly display them, definitely not your normal everyday-type gal decor but you know what, its us. But we laugh cause then we think, who's going to want to date us. What guy is not going to be intimated to see a wall of swords when they walk in. Its not going to stop us, but its nice that I have someone to be "odd" with, even though we are only being ourselves.
So in short, have been figuring myself out in all aspects of my life and am becoming happier with myself as a result. But there's another issue that has a role in part of this. My dad....more like my biological dad, the bastard of a father who has disappeared from my life. I definitely hate the man and what he has done to me and my sister but you know what, I am so ready to move on. I have mentioned before about wanting to change my middle name cause it came from my dad's name. I really don't want to go through the rest of my life with that black mark in my name. So what to do...change it but of course. But something else has come up, been discussed and we are going to go through with it. My step-father is the greatest man you will ever meet, he has three daughters from a previous marriage and still took my sister and I in as one of his own. He came at a point when my sister and I were still young and has been there every step of the way. I love him with all my heart and would be lost without him.
So anyway, the big news...I have asked Bob, my step-father to adopt my sister and I. It has been brought up before when we were younger but never went through with it, part of it cause I was determined that our other father would reappear in our lives. Well now, I am older and wiser. I talked with my sister and we both are so ready to get rid of all connections to our old father and have Bob be our legal dad. It does seem a lil silly, that here we are both in our 20's asking to be adopted but omg, does it mean the world to me. It makes me teary just thinking about it, cause I love him so much and already think of him as my full dad. He seemed really touched when I asked him and even later when I told my roommate, she was estatic cause she can see the love in our family and knows how much this means to me. So hopefully everything will go well and soon I will be Jaclyn Elise Daigle. Elise so far is the winner for my new middle name, unless I happen to find something better then that. Things are definitely improving...:P
If you haven't already figured it out, I definitely have been in a better mood recently. The job definitely doesn't make the person but it definitely makes the person a lil happier. One thing I have been doing is working on myself personally through all this ordeal. I have lost the sense of who I am and what my passions are. I started the counseling and that has helped alot, not in the sense of someone telling me what to do, but in the sense of its an unbiased person to chat with and let my feelings out. There are things that I would think no one would understand but she does, part of it is her job but either way, its nice to feel accepted and to actually feel a lil bit normal. Not that I ever will be normal, I know I never will be cause I do pride myself in not being your normal gal. My roommate and I have this joke going on. We both love swords and unique weapons especially if they come from Lord of the Rings. She recently bought "Sting" and we have been making plans to expand our collection and proudly display them, definitely not your normal everyday-type gal decor but you know what, its us. But we laugh cause then we think, who's going to want to date us. What guy is not going to be intimated to see a wall of swords when they walk in. Its not going to stop us, but its nice that I have someone to be "odd" with, even though we are only being ourselves.
So in short, have been figuring myself out in all aspects of my life and am becoming happier with myself as a result. But there's another issue that has a role in part of this. My dad....more like my biological dad, the bastard of a father who has disappeared from my life. I definitely hate the man and what he has done to me and my sister but you know what, I am so ready to move on. I have mentioned before about wanting to change my middle name cause it came from my dad's name. I really don't want to go through the rest of my life with that black mark in my name. So what to do...change it but of course. But something else has come up, been discussed and we are going to go through with it. My step-father is the greatest man you will ever meet, he has three daughters from a previous marriage and still took my sister and I in as one of his own. He came at a point when my sister and I were still young and has been there every step of the way. I love him with all my heart and would be lost without him.
So anyway, the big news...I have asked Bob, my step-father to adopt my sister and I. It has been brought up before when we were younger but never went through with it, part of it cause I was determined that our other father would reappear in our lives. Well now, I am older and wiser. I talked with my sister and we both are so ready to get rid of all connections to our old father and have Bob be our legal dad. It does seem a lil silly, that here we are both in our 20's asking to be adopted but omg, does it mean the world to me. It makes me teary just thinking about it, cause I love him so much and already think of him as my full dad. He seemed really touched when I asked him and even later when I told my roommate, she was estatic cause she can see the love in our family and knows how much this means to me. So hopefully everything will go well and soon I will be Jaclyn Elise Daigle. Elise so far is the winner for my new middle name, unless I happen to find something better then that. Things are definitely improving...:P