VIRGOSH
DO NOT WANT!!!! trace, please stop. just stop. stop thinking. stop talking. stop asking and looking and worrying. just be and do. i am not controlling, she is. she thinks like i did when i was an anorexic over-achiever. working my ass off for my future and to please other people, just to find out that shit is going to happen no matter how perfect you try to be. there is suffering. i admire her for trying so so so hard, but i know she's not doing it for herself i know she hates herself for it.
you know, i tried to talk to her about our sexual relationship tonight and how there's so many things i want to do with her, but feel we are on different planes concerning sex. i wasn't trying to place any sort of blame on either of us or persuade her to do things another way, i was simply stating the fact that we view sex differently. i am purely animal, she is purely conservative. she took this information waaaaaay too seriously and almost started crying and wanted to know what i want her to do differently blah blah blah. there's nothing she can do! we just don't click sexually. and that's fine because i love her so much as a friend and companion, sex is not my top priority with her. and that's a first when it comes to me and relationships. i mean, it would be nice to be on the same page in bed, but i can't always get exactly what i want. i'm just so frustrated with the whole thing. sexually frustrated. i never truly understood that term until today. it scares me because sexual frustration makes people unfaithful. and being unfaithful causes the end of relationships. what the fuck am i supposed to do?
you know, i tried to talk to her about our sexual relationship tonight and how there's so many things i want to do with her, but feel we are on different planes concerning sex. i wasn't trying to place any sort of blame on either of us or persuade her to do things another way, i was simply stating the fact that we view sex differently. i am purely animal, she is purely conservative. she took this information waaaaaay too seriously and almost started crying and wanted to know what i want her to do differently blah blah blah. there's nothing she can do! we just don't click sexually. and that's fine because i love her so much as a friend and companion, sex is not my top priority with her. and that's a first when it comes to me and relationships. i mean, it would be nice to be on the same page in bed, but i can't always get exactly what i want. i'm just so frustrated with the whole thing. sexually frustrated. i never truly understood that term until today. it scares me because sexual frustration makes people unfaithful. and being unfaithful causes the end of relationships. what the fuck am i supposed to do?