i lied
so im back....im done with xanga - its retarded
i feel hungover today...without the intake of alcohol. i feel weak and tired and emotionally empty. i dont know what i feel about anything at all...my heart and my head are scrambled, fried, and sauteed. life is just a blur...
and there isnt a thing in the world i can do about it.
realizing that fact only makes it harder. if i knew there was something, anything i could do or say to fix things man-oh-man would i try it. i want, more than anything, for all to be as before. but - there are no more options to choose from. im left with doubt and im hurt...some things have come to the surface that make me feel like ive been used and/or taken advantage of and the situation is out of my hands. ive given my all to find solutions time and time again - but guess what - here i am back at the starting line. i cant imagine life without the thing i thought i loved. but what i thought i loved...now seems as though it was never really there. that the entirity of it all was just a plus to add in the equation...that its goal was never more than to make a 'really good friendship'. and that is a strong blow to the heart.
im left with nothing else to give...
i feel hungover today...without the intake of alcohol. i feel weak and tired and emotionally empty. i dont know what i feel about anything at all...my heart and my head are scrambled, fried, and sauteed. life is just a blur...
and there isnt a thing in the world i can do about it.
realizing that fact only makes it harder. if i knew there was something, anything i could do or say to fix things man-oh-man would i try it. i want, more than anything, for all to be as before. but - there are no more options to choose from. im left with doubt and im hurt...some things have come to the surface that make me feel like ive been used and/or taken advantage of and the situation is out of my hands. ive given my all to find solutions time and time again - but guess what - here i am back at the starting line. i cant imagine life without the thing i thought i loved. but what i thought i loved...now seems as though it was never really there. that the entirity of it all was just a plus to add in the equation...that its goal was never more than to make a 'really good friendship'. and that is a strong blow to the heart.
im left with nothing else to give...