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i was really weird last night.
i came home and i felt kinda dizzy.
i fell asleep an hour later at 8, went to my bed at nine and i was really dizzy.
and i woke up at ten, had dinner and i was still dizzy. when i sat up, i felt like i was slowly tipping over to the side.
i lay on my floor on my back and listened to music for a little bit and watched the ceiling spin back and forth.
i said to myself 'im just imagining it' but i wasnt.it was real. i was dizzzzy
i changed into pajamas slowly because when i moved to fast everything spun harder and i got into bed.
i was laying there dizzy and i was so nervous.
i began to think something was wrong with me. a brain thing. i had a tumor in my brain that would kill me in my sleep.
i was positive. and really not the paranoid type. this was a really strange thing for me to think.and i knew it was weird.
and i figured, well if i die tonight, its no big deal for elliot, becasue we had a nice day together, said i love you, all that crap. if it would be my last day it wouldnt be so bad.
but i remembered that i had barely talked to my mom or dad all day. i hadnt even said goodnight.
and i was so weirded out atthe idea of dying without saying goodnight that i couldnt close my eyes. i felt unfinished. i had to get up and say goodnight to mom.
so i got up, still dizzy and hugged my mom and said goodnight to my brother and dad. and i could sleep. and i woke up the next morning and i feel fine.
i came home and i felt kinda dizzy.
i fell asleep an hour later at 8, went to my bed at nine and i was really dizzy.
and i woke up at ten, had dinner and i was still dizzy. when i sat up, i felt like i was slowly tipping over to the side.
i lay on my floor on my back and listened to music for a little bit and watched the ceiling spin back and forth.
i said to myself 'im just imagining it' but i wasnt.it was real. i was dizzzzy
i changed into pajamas slowly because when i moved to fast everything spun harder and i got into bed.
i was laying there dizzy and i was so nervous.
i began to think something was wrong with me. a brain thing. i had a tumor in my brain that would kill me in my sleep.
i was positive. and really not the paranoid type. this was a really strange thing for me to think.and i knew it was weird.
and i figured, well if i die tonight, its no big deal for elliot, becasue we had a nice day together, said i love you, all that crap. if it would be my last day it wouldnt be so bad.
but i remembered that i had barely talked to my mom or dad all day. i hadnt even said goodnight.
and i was so weirded out atthe idea of dying without saying goodnight that i couldnt close my eyes. i felt unfinished. i had to get up and say goodnight to mom.
so i got up, still dizzy and hugged my mom and said goodnight to my brother and dad. and i could sleep. and i woke up the next morning and i feel fine.