One step closer!

[cracked_nails]

This time next week I will be at home. I just turned in one of my final exams. I have four more to go. Theology, Calculus, Chemistry and Biology. I want to go home. Each day that passes brings me one step closer. I am almost finished with my freshman year of college. I am so scared that I am one step closer to the real world. The world so many of my friends already live in. So many of them have real jobs. So many have children. So many have found their significant other. So many have their penguin. I'm not ready for that. I'm not ready to grow up. I can't handle a job. I can't take care of myself much less a child. I ruined my last relationship beyond all repair. I can't make responsible decisions. I'm helpless so much of the times. I have a horrible work ethic. I'm not ready for the world and I can't hide forever. I want to be a doctor. I can't be trusted to wake up at a reasonable hour and I want people to put their health and their life into my hands. I need to grow up, but I'm to scared to do it. I guess eventually I will grow up. I just hope I'm ready for it when it happens.
Here's to the night.
Those nights we spent being kids.
Those nights we spent not thinking about the future.
Those nights we spent together.
Those nights we spent alive.
Those nights we spent crying together.
Those nights we spent hoping tomorrow would take its time in coming
Those nights we spent ditching the logical.

Here's a toast to all of those to hear me all to well because tomorrow is coming all to soon.