I F*ED Up beyond Belief
OMG! F*ck me running. I made a horrible mistake. I managed in one fell swoop to completely ruin the lives of at least three people and piss off at least a couple hundred. I seriously take the cake. It was so bad there was an emergency road trip at one in the morning across the entire state of Indiana. AND WHY? you may ask. All because I have zero self control and as much as I know it's not a good idea and as much as I knew I shouldn't and as much as there was a consensus that I shouldn't I went and did it anyway. But, I didn't lie about it. I could have gotten away with it if I would have just played it cool and kept my mouth shut or lied. I could have been out for a walk. I could have been on the porch. I could have been anywhere, but where I was. I don't know what I'm going to do other than give it time and hope that things end up not so bad. But hey, thanks to Matt/ Polish and Tim for offering to drive me across the state even if Tim only did it for someone else and really dislikes me sincerly and even though Polish only did it because a lot of it was partly his fault. Although I can't really blame him, if I hadn't of done it there would have been nothing to see and nothing to tell. Anyway, if you talk to him make sure he's okay and he's making it through okay. Don't let him quit don't let him give up. In addition, don't let him kill him. For everyone's sake keep me away from both of them. In fact just keep me away from everyone. Don't let me near people ever.