somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend before you got too cool
.. this .. right here .. is boredom. i guess. something like that, right ?
i dont feel like being productive, i just feel like doing something nutty. or just something to keep me amused !
tonight was a night i would have liked to hang out with robyn. where is she ? hmm ? hmm ?
YOU KNOW I HAVE NO FRIENDS ?! haha its so insanely true i swear i swear.
and everyone online .. is not online. theres basically no one for me to talk to. i dont wanna read. i dont wanna watch a movie. i wanna sit at my computer and do .. nothing and complain about it, or i wanna listen to a really awesome cd up in my room at really high volume and do 234098234 more charcoal drawings cause im a loser-artist like that. but i cant do the 2nd option, CAUSE I DONT HAVE ANY AWESOME CDs!! now that thats over with .. - hmph -
ok i always thought i should make one of these:
THINGS THAT HAVE CHANGED SINCE LAST YEAR
1. my musical interest list has gone down. way down.
2. instead of me being paranoid that no one likes me, i now just realize if i don't talk to people than i won't have to worry about them liking me or not.
3. i've gotten uglier -nods-
4. elisa
5. i talk to / im friends with people that i never thought i'd be friends with.
6. kevin and i .. arent close. are we close ? would you call us close ? no. hes still the only one who could make me laugh on the spot though, no matter what mood im in. that kid posesses a talent, it makes me want to miss him and love him like right now, just thinking of it.
7. i honestly don't care about other people's business so much anymore
8. candace isnt here anymore. i miss her.
9. robyn .. umm .. i think were closer. yeah we have to be. i dont remember hanging out with her really last year
10. geri doesnt work. this means shes up my ass a lot.
11. ive possibly become even more immature
12. FIT classes. im going to have their babies
13. sara moved. why did that happen ? fucking .. something. i hate the fact that she moved.
14. aww becky and the other cute freshmen. CUTE FRESHMEN I LOVE YOUUU. im kidding, i hate like 95% of them. but i DO love becky and jillian and people like that. - loves them -
15. bubble tea. enough said.
16. the fact that i never wanted to make one of these lists
17. OH ! my hair is now like 7 feet shorter. now its like fucking chin length instead of ass-length or something
18. me and lauren stein dont talk as much
19. im a whore or something. i dont know. i just wanted 19 things...
its only you, beautiful, or i dont want anyone. if i can choose, its only you
RAWR. i re-did sara's journal for her while she was gone. shes not back yet. its nicer than mine .. lucky bitch.
i think im gonna completely do something with my user info. i want it to be pretty or something.
and maybe ill make a community.
wow its friday .. and it feels like its like .. 1am on a wednesday night or something .. and its only 9:48
fuck something up the ass, i hate myself so much ! WHY AM I SO ANNOYING ?
exoh'
i dont feel like being productive, i just feel like doing something nutty. or just something to keep me amused !
tonight was a night i would have liked to hang out with robyn. where is she ? hmm ? hmm ?
YOU KNOW I HAVE NO FRIENDS ?! haha its so insanely true i swear i swear.
and everyone online .. is not online. theres basically no one for me to talk to. i dont wanna read. i dont wanna watch a movie. i wanna sit at my computer and do .. nothing and complain about it, or i wanna listen to a really awesome cd up in my room at really high volume and do 234098234 more charcoal drawings cause im a loser-artist like that. but i cant do the 2nd option, CAUSE I DONT HAVE ANY AWESOME CDs!! now that thats over with .. - hmph -
ok i always thought i should make one of these:
THINGS THAT HAVE CHANGED SINCE LAST YEAR
1. my musical interest list has gone down. way down.
2. instead of me being paranoid that no one likes me, i now just realize if i don't talk to people than i won't have to worry about them liking me or not.
3. i've gotten uglier -nods-
4. elisa
5. i talk to / im friends with people that i never thought i'd be friends with.
6. kevin and i .. arent close. are we close ? would you call us close ? no. hes still the only one who could make me laugh on the spot though, no matter what mood im in. that kid posesses a talent, it makes me want to miss him and love him like right now, just thinking of it.
7. i honestly don't care about other people's business so much anymore
8. candace isnt here anymore. i miss her.
9. robyn .. umm .. i think were closer. yeah we have to be. i dont remember hanging out with her really last year
10. geri doesnt work. this means shes up my ass a lot.
11. ive possibly become even more immature
12. FIT classes. im going to have their babies
13. sara moved. why did that happen ? fucking .. something. i hate the fact that she moved.
14. aww becky and the other cute freshmen. CUTE FRESHMEN I LOVE YOUUU. im kidding, i hate like 95% of them. but i DO love becky and jillian and people like that. - loves them -
15. bubble tea. enough said.
16. the fact that i never wanted to make one of these lists
17. OH ! my hair is now like 7 feet shorter. now its like fucking chin length instead of ass-length or something
18. me and lauren stein dont talk as much
19. im a whore or something. i dont know. i just wanted 19 things...
its only you, beautiful, or i dont want anyone. if i can choose, its only you
RAWR. i re-did sara's journal for her while she was gone. shes not back yet. its nicer than mine .. lucky bitch.
i think im gonna completely do something with my user info. i want it to be pretty or something.
and maybe ill make a community.
wow its friday .. and it feels like its like .. 1am on a wednesday night or something .. and its only 9:48
fuck something up the ass, i hate myself so much ! WHY AM I SO ANNOYING ?
exoh'