Why am I still up?
I can't seem to sleep today/morning/tonight/whatever. Been up since like 2pm the previous day. Although I have been kinda thinking I think that I wont be going the Math route that I thought I would. So its pretty much back to square one. But I have been entertaining the idea of learning german becoming fluent in that language and maybe just maybe go live in germany for a few years if not longer. I would not mind going backpacking over there. I think it would be an interesting and liberating experience. To venture out on my own w/o anything tying me down not to say that there is something like that now... I mean I am fuckin single and live in one of my best friends basement going to school full-time. Its kind of a unemployed bums wet dream. I dunno I just think I really need to take a deep long and hard stare at myself and see what is it that peeks my interest. What is it that makes me want to do something with so much passion and dedication that it almost hurts but in a good way. Something that truely makes me happy. I have been thinking so much. I mean on the outside I can be such a dick to those that I love but deep down inside I have so much love for those around me and that are close to me that it hurts. I keep it all buried because I think that if I let too much out I don't know what will happen. I mean I have never truely been so open with someone close to me except a few. Anyways... now I am rambling.
This is a promise to my friends that have kept me on their friends list for this long and have not taken me off yet. I will try my hardest to begin to make regular updates for now on. Unfortunately I am still playing WoW I dunno if it is a bad thing or a good one sooner or later I will let you know. It kinda consumes my social life then again I don't really have the money at the moment to have a social life. But I will tell you one thing 15 dollars a month is a lot cheaper than 50+ dollars at a bar a night. And if you run into friends or find a girl you might be interested in that price just doubles. Anyways I am off.
I am totally FOR-SERIOUS about my promise.
This is a promise to my friends that have kept me on their friends list for this long and have not taken me off yet. I will try my hardest to begin to make regular updates for now on. Unfortunately I am still playing WoW I dunno if it is a bad thing or a good one sooner or later I will let you know. It kinda consumes my social life then again I don't really have the money at the moment to have a social life. But I will tell you one thing 15 dollars a month is a lot cheaper than 50+ dollars at a bar a night. And if you run into friends or find a girl you might be interested in that price just doubles. Anyways I am off.
I am totally FOR-SERIOUS about my promise.