hurricane... my ass!
i was trying to figure out where im at in my life right now and i guess the best way to describe it is STUCK. i do the same shit every single day and every single night and i mean i love it but i guess theres a point when ya gotta just chill out. its hard not to party when youre surrounded by party animals and hey if youre not going to school yet you might as well get crunk right? exactly, its because of that mentality right there that i would consider myself a piece of shit and a dumbass too for not starting school yet. whats holding me back? why is it takin me so long to just get my life started? bullshit, and thats all it is. they say you are who you hang out with and when i look at the people that i love so much and hold so dear... theyre all in the same situation as me. its not a bad thing but im just sayin that theory is accurate as FUCK!
last night we drank 2 bottles of patron smoked dro all night long and picked up some beer too. needless to say it was a wonderful evening and if i did that every once in awhile it would have been fabulous... but i do it all the time and when theres not shit else to do its just so hard to say no! i wish i could just meet a good guy that could keep me out of trouble. i was gonna go bowling last night with some friends but of course the one night i want to go douchebag decided to go too and by douchebag i mean the piece of shit formerly known as my boyfriend. dont get me wrong im actually really proud of myself for how well i took that whole situation but you got shit twisted if you think im about to go bowl with the kid. theres too much id be tempted to say and im not even trying to deal with all that. im not about the drama and im definitely not tryin to bring it to the bowling alley ha. plus, even after everything, i still like the kid i cant even lie. that was just one situation that was best if avoided....
i dont know i guess im just kinda in a shitty situation right now. i know what i need to do i just have such little motivation its pathetic....
last night we drank 2 bottles of patron smoked dro all night long and picked up some beer too. needless to say it was a wonderful evening and if i did that every once in awhile it would have been fabulous... but i do it all the time and when theres not shit else to do its just so hard to say no! i wish i could just meet a good guy that could keep me out of trouble. i was gonna go bowling last night with some friends but of course the one night i want to go douchebag decided to go too and by douchebag i mean the piece of shit formerly known as my boyfriend. dont get me wrong im actually really proud of myself for how well i took that whole situation but you got shit twisted if you think im about to go bowl with the kid. theres too much id be tempted to say and im not even trying to deal with all that. im not about the drama and im definitely not tryin to bring it to the bowling alley ha. plus, even after everything, i still like the kid i cant even lie. that was just one situation that was best if avoided....
i dont know i guess im just kinda in a shitty situation right now. i know what i need to do i just have such little motivation its pathetic....