i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t!
its official... i fucking SUCK at life.
i dont know what the hell my problem is. i bitch and complain all the time about how i cant find a good guy to be in a relationship with. well honestly hes one of the best guys ive ever met. hes fun, hes loyal, he looks out for me and he loves me more than anyones ever let me know. he puts up with so much of my bullshit. if i told you how many times i told him i was gonna chill but didnt end up going you would think i was fucking awful. i dont even know why. shit always just fell into place in the wrong way. i love him i really do. he took my virginity for gods sake! i just dont know if im ready to be in a relationship with him. its just not fair to either of us.
on the flip side theres always another guy. and hes been in my life for even longer. i think i even love him more. i want to marry him. hes my best friend and weve been through so much shit together its not even funny. we hardly ever argue we have fun doing anything. we went downtown last night me and him just like the old days. it brought back a lot of feelings for both of us i think. we did all the usual activities and even threw in a couple more stops to spice up the evening. we did the thing where you have to tell a secret before you take your jello shot and i wasnt expecting what he told me at all. i love that kid.
.....and im such a fucking asshole!!!!
i guess everything happens for a reason, i guess well see what happens.
i dont know what the hell my problem is. i bitch and complain all the time about how i cant find a good guy to be in a relationship with. well honestly hes one of the best guys ive ever met. hes fun, hes loyal, he looks out for me and he loves me more than anyones ever let me know. he puts up with so much of my bullshit. if i told you how many times i told him i was gonna chill but didnt end up going you would think i was fucking awful. i dont even know why. shit always just fell into place in the wrong way. i love him i really do. he took my virginity for gods sake! i just dont know if im ready to be in a relationship with him. its just not fair to either of us.
on the flip side theres always another guy. and hes been in my life for even longer. i think i even love him more. i want to marry him. hes my best friend and weve been through so much shit together its not even funny. we hardly ever argue we have fun doing anything. we went downtown last night me and him just like the old days. it brought back a lot of feelings for both of us i think. we did all the usual activities and even threw in a couple more stops to spice up the evening. we did the thing where you have to tell a secret before you take your jello shot and i wasnt expecting what he told me at all. i love that kid.
.....and im such a fucking asshole!!!!
i guess everything happens for a reason, i guess well see what happens.