Dear Gretchen,
I hope this letter finds you in good health. I'm not really sure how to write this letter. I know why I'm writing it, though. I'm writing it because you deserve to hear what I have to say.
I've been living in a town named Cougar Ridge for two years. Or outside it, more accurately. I got a job with the National parks Department, and I work at the Rocky Mountain National Park. I have a small cabin next to the Ranger Station, and the peace and quiet has done wonders for my state of mind. I look out the window in the morning and see mountains, trees, and breath taking blue skies. I think you'd love it. It's a nice quiet town, like we always talked about living in.
I can't tell you how sorry I am for what I did. You deserved so much better from me than you got. I can't explain what I was going through at the time. With getting discharged, and the Police Department not working out, I felt like my life was going down the drain. I know the alcohol had a great deal to do with that, and I know it's not an excuse. The way things were going, I just thought that it would be better if you weren't pulled down with me. The last thing I wanted was to lock you into a life of blue collar drudgery, scraping to make ends meet, wondering how we were going to survive from week to week. You deserved so much better than me, and you just kept staying by me. I am a fool for driving you away. I was just scared that your life would be destroyed the same way I destroyed mine.
Things were bad for me for a long time after you left. I know you spoke to my dad after I left for New Jersey. It was a bleak period for me, and I continued to sabotage every good thing that was in my life. Finally, at my lowest point, my friend Billy gave me a real reality check, and it turned me around. I haven't seen him since. Just another person I owe my life to that deserves better from me.
I'm doing much better now. I haven't had a drink in just about two years, and the Parks Department has been great. The solitude has given me a lot of time to think about the past. Now I can think about the future. I'm going to start going into town more, meet some of the townsfolk I've been living above for the past two years. Its time for me to not be alone any more.
I hope you will one day find it in your heart to forgive me. I hope you're happy wherever you are, married with a big family. I know you always wanted children. Be well, and know that you were never far from my thoughts.
Love Always,
Cole
I've been living in a town named Cougar Ridge for two years. Or outside it, more accurately. I got a job with the National parks Department, and I work at the Rocky Mountain National Park. I have a small cabin next to the Ranger Station, and the peace and quiet has done wonders for my state of mind. I look out the window in the morning and see mountains, trees, and breath taking blue skies. I think you'd love it. It's a nice quiet town, like we always talked about living in.
I can't tell you how sorry I am for what I did. You deserved so much better from me than you got. I can't explain what I was going through at the time. With getting discharged, and the Police Department not working out, I felt like my life was going down the drain. I know the alcohol had a great deal to do with that, and I know it's not an excuse. The way things were going, I just thought that it would be better if you weren't pulled down with me. The last thing I wanted was to lock you into a life of blue collar drudgery, scraping to make ends meet, wondering how we were going to survive from week to week. You deserved so much better than me, and you just kept staying by me. I am a fool for driving you away. I was just scared that your life would be destroyed the same way I destroyed mine.
Things were bad for me for a long time after you left. I know you spoke to my dad after I left for New Jersey. It was a bleak period for me, and I continued to sabotage every good thing that was in my life. Finally, at my lowest point, my friend Billy gave me a real reality check, and it turned me around. I haven't seen him since. Just another person I owe my life to that deserves better from me.
I'm doing much better now. I haven't had a drink in just about two years, and the Parks Department has been great. The solitude has given me a lot of time to think about the past. Now I can think about the future. I'm going to start going into town more, meet some of the townsfolk I've been living above for the past two years. Its time for me to not be alone any more.
I hope you will one day find it in your heart to forgive me. I hope you're happy wherever you are, married with a big family. I know you always wanted children. Be well, and know that you were never far from my thoughts.
Love Always,
Cole