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Sometimes I just need to rant or go on about things that just wouldn't fit in other places, such as forums, my Tumblr (which is hardly serious), or Twitter.
Then I remember I have this place, which has seen better days, but it is still here.
Work has been... eh. I am tired of bussing tables for money when I could be home learning how to make music or practice drawing or being inspired to work on something productive. Instead, work is what is productive, then I come home and stare at my computer, maybe play a game for an hour or two, and then go to bed really late despite working in the morning. It is just not motivating me to do other things. It is holding me back.
When it comes to socializing around here, most of it has been done on Twitter. I'm trying to open up a little bit more and reply to a lot more people, but sometimes I feel like I'm coming off as a bit of a creep or something when replying to people constantly. Like I'm going to grind someone's gears too far and they will just block me altogether. I don't want that. If I'm irritating someone I'd hope they tell me immediately so I can hold back my replies most of the time. I don't want to be intrusive or stalkish. I mean, I am probably not but to me it feels that way. This is what happens when you were raised to listen to others but not speak up for yourself I guess. I'm breaking out of this because doing that just isn't me anymore. I'm voicing my opinions and whatnot now more openly with a lot of other people with no guilt or anything of the sort, so I guess that is a plus. Internet is a different story somewhat but I'm breaking out of it.
This image sums up my days in the past few weeks.
Yep.
Then I remember I have this place, which has seen better days, but it is still here.
Work has been... eh. I am tired of bussing tables for money when I could be home learning how to make music or practice drawing or being inspired to work on something productive. Instead, work is what is productive, then I come home and stare at my computer, maybe play a game for an hour or two, and then go to bed really late despite working in the morning. It is just not motivating me to do other things. It is holding me back.
When it comes to socializing around here, most of it has been done on Twitter. I'm trying to open up a little bit more and reply to a lot more people, but sometimes I feel like I'm coming off as a bit of a creep or something when replying to people constantly. Like I'm going to grind someone's gears too far and they will just block me altogether. I don't want that. If I'm irritating someone I'd hope they tell me immediately so I can hold back my replies most of the time. I don't want to be intrusive or stalkish. I mean, I am probably not but to me it feels that way. This is what happens when you were raised to listen to others but not speak up for yourself I guess. I'm breaking out of this because doing that just isn't me anymore. I'm voicing my opinions and whatnot now more openly with a lot of other people with no guilt or anything of the sort, so I guess that is a plus. Internet is a different story somewhat but I'm breaking out of it.
This image sums up my days in the past few weeks.
Yep.