Nov 05, 2005 14:29
Ok so Last night I had my moment of clarity.....I realized that the most important thing to me.....can and will only happen if I beleve in it! I mean Im actually a lot more spiritual then most people think......Before you get confused.....I don't mean as in religion and god.....Im mean I have a lot of faith in people and just the way things happen! It sounds weird.....I know but.....Its like this: I think if you stay optomistic about something it will happen...espically if its something you want as badly as well the thing im refering to.....where as if you just give up on it....I think that it definatly won't happen! OK I think im losing people here.....i'll try to explain it another time when I can find better words.....but my point was that I know I ABSOLUTLY know that this will happen because its just the way it really has to be and I honestly beleve its just ment to be this way...it wont fit anyother way.
So on a not so confusing note.....I talked to my little brother Brandon(hejust turned 12) today..He lives in hartvill missouri with my mom. SO I am soo proud that he is just my brother. He is the greatest little kid ive ever met....And im the oldest of 5 soon to be 6 kids (also including my step sister)...So yeah but he is just great...I hate to admit it but hes def. my fav. that could have somthing to do with the fact that hes not fucking my step-dad(sis. mandy just turned 19) and he didn't just inlist in the mariens (brother donjust turned 18)hes so proud that im his sister it makes me feel really good. He listens to all the music I listen to: Pink Floyd, Marilyn Manson, Coheed & Cambria, Aerosmith, KMFDM,KORN,tom petty,Rage against the machiene I really mean everything I burned all of my cds for him when he came home to visit....So hes like yeah my sister is the coolest and your sister is lame compared to mine to all of his friends...Plus hes such a sweet heart..He just got a like 45inch tv. for the garoge thats being turned into his rec-room....He found these little ceramic african elephants (my fav. animal)and he told my mom I'll put my tv. back if I can get these for kat.....(but of corse i would never let him give up something for me)so he got the tv. and hes like "Kat...every body here thinks im cool, cuz the way I dress and the music I listen to im like the coolest kid at school and I tell them its cuz i like all the stuff you do and your really the cool one" How fucking sweet....So he got into a fight the other day and of corse im like honey you can't fight its not worth it. Your really a bigger man if you walk away cuz anyone can fight....its harder to shrug it off....hes like i know don't be mad at me. (Which I never could)and he definatly knows that too....so hes all i promis you I won't fight anymore...to which i reply you know how strongly i take promises there like.....and he goes "sacred" what a smart kid! and im like yeah good word buddy....and hes all I know I take them seriously when there promises between you and me so I will never break it again.....AWWW!! K so i had to brag about my littlest brother a little. cuz hes just the coolest.....
this star always makes me think high!!