hmmm....
....I really, really want an RN job at a hospital, but don't have the will to try for one. I am so convinced it will never happen, yet part of me hopes that it will. I want to do acute care and learn and grow as an RN. I hope there is a hospital out there willing to give me a chance. I will be a great RN for them I just know.
Today was a failure. I wanted to call Hollywood Community Hospital, but I didn't. Why didn't I? Because my shyness of calling places and people won out. I have to get over this it is ridiculuous. The worse they can asy is no, which would be just what I am used to. I have to call tomorrow. If I am ever going to find a job at the hospital I have to keep trying. There are tons of hospitals in this area. I need to call and apply to each and everyone until I get a job or I have failed and all is lost. Ok, I know that last statement is dramatic. Maybe I should just go back to school and get my BSN. Maybe that would give me a better chance to get in a hospital we will see. All I know is I need a good steady job before September. So Cozi an I can stay in Los Angeles and also so we can move to a different apartment. L.A. has finally grown on me. I want this place to be my forever home.
I really, really lik it here. Plus, I want Cozi to live his dream and become writer for t.v. He is a great guy and desrves everything he has ever wanted.
On craiglist there was an adfor veteniary assistant willing to train. I so wanted to apply, but then I realized I don't want to quit being an RN. I think when I want to swith jobs it is because I am afraid of failure and never having an RN job that I love. I am a nurse and I want to be a nurse. So I probably won't apply. But if I do and I get the job maybe it is a sign. I don't know. i love animals and thus would probably love assisting a vet, but I did go t school to be an RN and it does have a good wage, can I really walk away from that?
I want to go horseback riding really badly. I need to find someone who wants to go with me. Cozi is not interested. I found a ranch where a day time ride for 1 hour is $25 per person or 2 hours is $ 40 per person. I wonder if Alex would be interested at all.
Meeting people from craigslist has been interesting. So far I have made one really good freind Alex. From her, her husband Bobby. Cozi and I now have a couple to hang out with and occassionly their roommates hang out too, which is cool. I have learned that I can't juet be friends with everyone. I can get along with people, but I just can't be friends with everyone I meet. It has been an interesting lesson.
That's all for now.
Today was a failure. I wanted to call Hollywood Community Hospital, but I didn't. Why didn't I? Because my shyness of calling places and people won out. I have to get over this it is ridiculuous. The worse they can asy is no, which would be just what I am used to. I have to call tomorrow. If I am ever going to find a job at the hospital I have to keep trying. There are tons of hospitals in this area. I need to call and apply to each and everyone until I get a job or I have failed and all is lost. Ok, I know that last statement is dramatic. Maybe I should just go back to school and get my BSN. Maybe that would give me a better chance to get in a hospital we will see. All I know is I need a good steady job before September. So Cozi an I can stay in Los Angeles and also so we can move to a different apartment. L.A. has finally grown on me. I want this place to be my forever home.
I really, really lik it here. Plus, I want Cozi to live his dream and become writer for t.v. He is a great guy and desrves everything he has ever wanted.
On craiglist there was an adfor veteniary assistant willing to train. I so wanted to apply, but then I realized I don't want to quit being an RN. I think when I want to swith jobs it is because I am afraid of failure and never having an RN job that I love. I am a nurse and I want to be a nurse. So I probably won't apply. But if I do and I get the job maybe it is a sign. I don't know. i love animals and thus would probably love assisting a vet, but I did go t school to be an RN and it does have a good wage, can I really walk away from that?
I want to go horseback riding really badly. I need to find someone who wants to go with me. Cozi is not interested. I found a ranch where a day time ride for 1 hour is $25 per person or 2 hours is $ 40 per person. I wonder if Alex would be interested at all.
Meeting people from craigslist has been interesting. So far I have made one really good freind Alex. From her, her husband Bobby. Cozi and I now have a couple to hang out with and occassionly their roommates hang out too, which is cool. I have learned that I can't juet be friends with everyone. I can get along with people, but I just can't be friends with everyone I meet. It has been an interesting lesson.
That's all for now.