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oh god. the fanmeeting turned my whole weekend around. SO emotional...
I can't even put it coherently.
so... hyperballad calls me around 10:30 AM where I'd been stewing at home, angry because I couldn't sign up for the ELF registration + fanmeeting tix that opened up for foreigners, because I'd already registered for ELF (I still haven't received my card, btw) and she's like "btw, they're going to be selling tickets here even if you didn't sign up online, you should try!" because she's the coolest person in the world. I more or less wrapped up my work I was playing around with and hopped on the train to meander over thataway and do a couple of things first that I needed to get done.
I got there... idk, around 12:50, and the first fanmeet was supposed to begin at 1. I stood around in line for awhile, finally got up to the front and they told me I was in the wrong line lol, so took me over to a different one and I was like "I can has tickets? :D" and they were like "for which show?" BECAUSE THEY WERE STILL SELLING 1 PM TICKETS. even though it was already like 1:15 and stuff was starting, inside.
guess which one I bought. SO GLAD I DIDN'T WAIT. OH MY GOD.
anyway, I missed Boom Boom and the first half of Bonamana by the time I fumbled in and scrambled up to my seat, high up to the right of the stage. but that's ok. the venue was small enough that even high up you could see the stage SO much better than we could at the dream concert, and I didn't even care.
after Bonamana there was some talking, then KRY sang several songs and Yeh did his solo and I'm so glad hoyah has finally gotten to hear Ryeowook live, because he's amazing and Yesung's voice has gotten way stronger than the last time I heard him seriously sing and I'm so happy. I think Kyuhyun is learning to emote a little bit, even!
idek what happened next... I think they drew some stubs out of the box and called 5-6 fans up to the stage to play games with SJ like charades and pictionary. one of the girls was Japanese and so Siwon and Sungmin were trying to translate for her and help her along. it was cute, anyway.
Heechul performed Ivy's Sonata of Temptation and Sungmin started it with a guitar solo on his knees, that boy was in fine form today and I think everyone came a little. so of course all the fans were just waiting to see who Heechul would raep today... he went over toward Sungmin, hammed a little but didn't kiss him, then swung around to walk over to Ryeowook. he got within a few feet of him, Ryeowook saw him coming and kind of went all wide-eyed and awkward-smiles and skittish-looking, at which point Heechul cracked up and turned around and left him alone. he was actually loling as he tried to sing the next few lines.
umm... Donghae, Eunhyuk, Shindong, Kyuhyun, and Eeteuk had a dance break... I'm really proud of Kyuhyun for putting so much effort into his dancing nowadays. he's real hot.
SO. then they start this countdown of all these clips of old suju emotional moments... like every time Eeteuk/Eunhyuk have just sobbed buckets, the time Heechul hobbled out on his feet instead of in a wheelchair to some fanmeet, a bunch of awards, some really early fan events circa debut, their first official performance, etc... I got really sad every time I saw Hangeng and Heechul and Siwon both seemed very serious and sad when he came up on screen too. there was a lot of touching/leaning there. also some making fun of Eunhyuk because that boy don't cry pretty.
then they started playing Marry U, and the boys were kind of wandering around toward the front/central part of the stage... then suddenly! KANGIN POPPED UP FROM THE CENTER PLATFORM AND THE ENTIRE STADIUM STARTED SCREAMING. I think Ryeowook was one of the first members to break "formation" and just start for him and there were so many hugs and TEARS EVERYWHERE I am not an emotional person and I was real choked up. Heechul couldn't even look up and kept trying to hide his tears... Kyuhyun cried and clung to Kangin's neck and Hyuk, naturally, was fountaining like a little anime character. Ryeowook clung on Kangin and kissed his neck, even. the entire auditorium basically broke down and wept in between chanting for him and Kangin was bawling and he's gained a lot of weight, oh my, but his little red eyes and sdlfjasd;f I can't even talk about it sensibly. hearing his voice again.... it really hit everyone how long it's been and how long it'll probably be before we can hear him again.
if nothing else, I think it was incredibly cathartic for everyone. this was the chance to say goodbye, it was his moment to really... acknowledge his mistake, and he did. he went down to the floor and made a full, formal, head-to-the-floor bow right to all the fans. he also mentioned the other missing kids... Kibum, who is apparently too busy flossing his toenails idek, and of course Hangeng...
Heechul did not let go of Kangin again for like... any of the time he was on the stage. and Heechul kept crying and trying to hide it in his retarded shaggy hair and they held hands like the whole time if they didn't have an arm around each other or a hand on the back of the neck.
anyway, Kangin finally said his piece and they all toddled off to get changed for the next set. which, in an epic failure of planning, was Chu. so they play the video (la la la, f(x) is rehearsing, then one of them goes to the restroom and finds Sulli peeing at a urinal, then everyone comes out and rips off their "faces" to reveal Heechul, Donghae, and Shindong and spazz at the remaining two f(x) girls.
then the video clip ended and of course the Chu crew came out... 4 of them had pulled themselves together and were being perky happy little performers again but Heechul was just... gone. like... utterly bereft expression, a look on his face like he did not know the words, was not sure where he was, and he would just sort of wiggle vaguely in place like he knew his hands and legs were supposed to go somewhere but he couldn't be arsed to figure out where. it was the weakest performance I've -ever- seen from Heechul, ever. he was still a teary wreck and just... couldn't shake it off.
he kind of apologized afterward, he knew it perfectly well.
last song I can't remember, but they kind of came up in all these different places to go around the entire auditorium and get closer to people... which I spazzed out at because on my side, Siwon and Yesung came out on their little rolling platforms and swung right below me. as I hop up and down and shout like a retard because, y'know, they're the two I've met outside of SJ events before and had some personal interaction with. then they meet the platforms from the other side of the auditorium in the middle and trade sides... so Eeteuk and... someone idek came by me, and I stood up and jumped around some more. Eeteuk TOTALLY looked up and saw tall obnoxious white girl flipping her shit and grinned real big and waved right at me. then someone brilliant decided to let Kyu and Ryeowook WALK straight down through a mass of fans and I thought someone was going to die. Heechul just stood dead center of the stage during all this and halfheartedly sang along.
then uh... I think they came out to do their final lineup, or I missed some segment somewhere but it clearly wasn't memorable. anyway 9 of them came out, Heechul had fucked off and didn't even appear, and they were all giving their individual greetings and got to the end and someone was like "er, where's Heechul?" and the crowd started chanting for him, THEN Heechul finally came out with Kangin in tow and rejoined everyone, smiles again. cue shrieking everywhere and more tears.
at the very VERY end, they brought out some tables, set them on the center stage, and announced that the entire audience was going to get to highfive the members on their way past when leaving the building. so we sat for approximately 3 years while one section, then another, was filed out and past suju.
YEWOOK MOMENT FOR thundersquall:
so this girl comes by, back when they were still videoing the fans and suju because SJ are hams and do silly things on camera while shaking hands, and she latches onto Yeh's hand and half tries to drag him off with her. he gets free, but Ryeowook, who is right next to him, does this complete head-turn and STAAAAARE at this girl. he followed her with LASER EYE BEAMS all the way out of the auditorium. do not touch his man, ok. Ryeowook will bring it. it will get brought.
also, Mai gave Yeh socks. batman socks. I feel that there is a story in this.
Sungmin was having a really good day today. he had so much energy and it was more positive than I've ever felt from him before... Eeteuk was even fairly cheery and not in a fakey way. he was super excited about some waegooks, let me tell you. Siwon... was tired and kind of down but making a real effort to be personable, as always, I just felt so bad for him and Heechul. they stuck together and hovered a lot. Heechul did not actually want to be touched, and used Donghae's hand as a shield for part of the touch-event, then actually just... got up and walked off with a manager trotting after him in an anxious/resigned way. he came back after awhile, but I wonder what exactly triggered that. also, Ryeowook apparently looked upset, got up and tried to leave as well a little later, but a manager talked him down and blocked people from touching him from awhile. I kind of wonder if someone said something offensive to him or something. Donghae has more energy than the world and just sort of sparkles everyone into submission and/or lust. Shindong's real... 5'o'clock shadow-y and needed a shower. I don't even hardly remember Hyuk, he was turned half around and just sort of sticking his hand out for people to touch without looking, I don't even care. Siwon remembered me a little, I think? he sort of bowed anyway. Eeteuk was doing his cookie-cutter thing but then he saw obnoxiously tall white girl and went "!! hi! :D" and I was like 'dawww you're actually cute!'. Heechul was also prepared to be mentally on another plane and then realized he had to look up and kind of went "buh?" but I love him anyway. Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun is shockingly tall in person, and has this blinding brat-grin smile and I kind of looked at him and my hormones went 'guh' and I was still stunned when I stumbled past Yeh and Ryeo and went off the stage.
that's all for SJ, but outside, some fangirls came up to me and engrished at me a little, gave me a card, then (as they turned to go) I shit you not, one pointed across the path and said to the other "look! more! I love waegook-in!". then they ran off to give cards to more waegooks, because we're hilarious.
edit: ohh there was another part, toward the middle of the show. they each brought out something that was important to them in some way, and all these objects were on a table, then Teuk picked each thing up and the fans guessed who it belonged to. ummm... I might be confused on whose was what but as I remember it, Hyukjae had a pillow with his own picture on it and the fans guessed it was Donghae's (and he ran up and made out with it, he ships Eunhae harder than any fan ever btw)... Shindong had a Rubik's cube, someone (Teuk? Donghae?) had a picture of the blue lightstick ocean from one of the Super Shows, Siwon had a diary/daily planner and they read a bit from it and he flipped his shit and hopped up and down and was basically adorable, Sungmin had a motorcycle helmet, Kyuhyun had his clarinet, Heechul had the mother-fucking METAL ROD THAT WAS IN HIS LEG, Yesung had some mix CD I think, and Ryeowook had his S.E.S fanclub membership card and one of their albums and did a little part of one of their songs. I think he liked them so much because he secretly dreamed of becoming one of them one day.
I can't even put it coherently.
so... hyperballad calls me around 10:30 AM where I'd been stewing at home, angry because I couldn't sign up for the ELF registration + fanmeeting tix that opened up for foreigners, because I'd already registered for ELF (I still haven't received my card, btw) and she's like "btw, they're going to be selling tickets here even if you didn't sign up online, you should try!" because she's the coolest person in the world. I more or less wrapped up my work I was playing around with and hopped on the train to meander over thataway and do a couple of things first that I needed to get done.
I got there... idk, around 12:50, and the first fanmeet was supposed to begin at 1. I stood around in line for awhile, finally got up to the front and they told me I was in the wrong line lol, so took me over to a different one and I was like "I can has tickets? :D" and they were like "for which show?" BECAUSE THEY WERE STILL SELLING 1 PM TICKETS. even though it was already like 1:15 and stuff was starting, inside.
guess which one I bought. SO GLAD I DIDN'T WAIT. OH MY GOD.
anyway, I missed Boom Boom and the first half of Bonamana by the time I fumbled in and scrambled up to my seat, high up to the right of the stage. but that's ok. the venue was small enough that even high up you could see the stage SO much better than we could at the dream concert, and I didn't even care.
after Bonamana there was some talking, then KRY sang several songs and Yeh did his solo and I'm so glad hoyah has finally gotten to hear Ryeowook live, because he's amazing and Yesung's voice has gotten way stronger than the last time I heard him seriously sing and I'm so happy. I think Kyuhyun is learning to emote a little bit, even!
idek what happened next... I think they drew some stubs out of the box and called 5-6 fans up to the stage to play games with SJ like charades and pictionary. one of the girls was Japanese and so Siwon and Sungmin were trying to translate for her and help her along. it was cute, anyway.
Heechul performed Ivy's Sonata of Temptation and Sungmin started it with a guitar solo on his knees, that boy was in fine form today and I think everyone came a little. so of course all the fans were just waiting to see who Heechul would raep today... he went over toward Sungmin, hammed a little but didn't kiss him, then swung around to walk over to Ryeowook. he got within a few feet of him, Ryeowook saw him coming and kind of went all wide-eyed and awkward-smiles and skittish-looking, at which point Heechul cracked up and turned around and left him alone. he was actually loling as he tried to sing the next few lines.
umm... Donghae, Eunhyuk, Shindong, Kyuhyun, and Eeteuk had a dance break... I'm really proud of Kyuhyun for putting so much effort into his dancing nowadays. he's real hot.
SO. then they start this countdown of all these clips of old suju emotional moments... like every time Eeteuk/Eunhyuk have just sobbed buckets, the time Heechul hobbled out on his feet instead of in a wheelchair to some fanmeet, a bunch of awards, some really early fan events circa debut, their first official performance, etc... I got really sad every time I saw Hangeng and Heechul and Siwon both seemed very serious and sad when he came up on screen too. there was a lot of touching/leaning there. also some making fun of Eunhyuk because that boy don't cry pretty.
then they started playing Marry U, and the boys were kind of wandering around toward the front/central part of the stage... then suddenly! KANGIN POPPED UP FROM THE CENTER PLATFORM AND THE ENTIRE STADIUM STARTED SCREAMING. I think Ryeowook was one of the first members to break "formation" and just start for him and there were so many hugs and TEARS EVERYWHERE I am not an emotional person and I was real choked up. Heechul couldn't even look up and kept trying to hide his tears... Kyuhyun cried and clung to Kangin's neck and Hyuk, naturally, was fountaining like a little anime character. Ryeowook clung on Kangin and kissed his neck, even. the entire auditorium basically broke down and wept in between chanting for him and Kangin was bawling and he's gained a lot of weight, oh my, but his little red eyes and sdlfjasd;f I can't even talk about it sensibly. hearing his voice again.... it really hit everyone how long it's been and how long it'll probably be before we can hear him again.
if nothing else, I think it was incredibly cathartic for everyone. this was the chance to say goodbye, it was his moment to really... acknowledge his mistake, and he did. he went down to the floor and made a full, formal, head-to-the-floor bow right to all the fans. he also mentioned the other missing kids... Kibum, who is apparently too busy flossing his toenails idek, and of course Hangeng...
Heechul did not let go of Kangin again for like... any of the time he was on the stage. and Heechul kept crying and trying to hide it in his retarded shaggy hair and they held hands like the whole time if they didn't have an arm around each other or a hand on the back of the neck.
anyway, Kangin finally said his piece and they all toddled off to get changed for the next set. which, in an epic failure of planning, was Chu. so they play the video (la la la, f(x) is rehearsing, then one of them goes to the restroom and finds Sulli peeing at a urinal, then everyone comes out and rips off their "faces" to reveal Heechul, Donghae, and Shindong and spazz at the remaining two f(x) girls.
then the video clip ended and of course the Chu crew came out... 4 of them had pulled themselves together and were being perky happy little performers again but Heechul was just... gone. like... utterly bereft expression, a look on his face like he did not know the words, was not sure where he was, and he would just sort of wiggle vaguely in place like he knew his hands and legs were supposed to go somewhere but he couldn't be arsed to figure out where. it was the weakest performance I've -ever- seen from Heechul, ever. he was still a teary wreck and just... couldn't shake it off.
he kind of apologized afterward, he knew it perfectly well.
last song I can't remember, but they kind of came up in all these different places to go around the entire auditorium and get closer to people... which I spazzed out at because on my side, Siwon and Yesung came out on their little rolling platforms and swung right below me. as I hop up and down and shout like a retard because, y'know, they're the two I've met outside of SJ events before and had some personal interaction with. then they meet the platforms from the other side of the auditorium in the middle and trade sides... so Eeteuk and... someone idek came by me, and I stood up and jumped around some more. Eeteuk TOTALLY looked up and saw tall obnoxious white girl flipping her shit and grinned real big and waved right at me. then someone brilliant decided to let Kyu and Ryeowook WALK straight down through a mass of fans and I thought someone was going to die. Heechul just stood dead center of the stage during all this and halfheartedly sang along.
then uh... I think they came out to do their final lineup, or I missed some segment somewhere but it clearly wasn't memorable. anyway 9 of them came out, Heechul had fucked off and didn't even appear, and they were all giving their individual greetings and got to the end and someone was like "er, where's Heechul?" and the crowd started chanting for him, THEN Heechul finally came out with Kangin in tow and rejoined everyone, smiles again. cue shrieking everywhere and more tears.
at the very VERY end, they brought out some tables, set them on the center stage, and announced that the entire audience was going to get to highfive the members on their way past when leaving the building. so we sat for approximately 3 years while one section, then another, was filed out and past suju.
YEWOOK MOMENT FOR thundersquall:
so this girl comes by, back when they were still videoing the fans and suju because SJ are hams and do silly things on camera while shaking hands, and she latches onto Yeh's hand and half tries to drag him off with her. he gets free, but Ryeowook, who is right next to him, does this complete head-turn and STAAAAARE at this girl. he followed her with LASER EYE BEAMS all the way out of the auditorium. do not touch his man, ok. Ryeowook will bring it. it will get brought.
also, Mai gave Yeh socks. batman socks. I feel that there is a story in this.
Sungmin was having a really good day today. he had so much energy and it was more positive than I've ever felt from him before... Eeteuk was even fairly cheery and not in a fakey way. he was super excited about some waegooks, let me tell you. Siwon... was tired and kind of down but making a real effort to be personable, as always, I just felt so bad for him and Heechul. they stuck together and hovered a lot. Heechul did not actually want to be touched, and used Donghae's hand as a shield for part of the touch-event, then actually just... got up and walked off with a manager trotting after him in an anxious/resigned way. he came back after awhile, but I wonder what exactly triggered that. also, Ryeowook apparently looked upset, got up and tried to leave as well a little later, but a manager talked him down and blocked people from touching him from awhile. I kind of wonder if someone said something offensive to him or something. Donghae has more energy than the world and just sort of sparkles everyone into submission and/or lust. Shindong's real... 5'o'clock shadow-y and needed a shower. I don't even hardly remember Hyuk, he was turned half around and just sort of sticking his hand out for people to touch without looking, I don't even care. Siwon remembered me a little, I think? he sort of bowed anyway. Eeteuk was doing his cookie-cutter thing but then he saw obnoxiously tall white girl and went "!! hi! :D" and I was like 'dawww you're actually cute!'. Heechul was also prepared to be mentally on another plane and then realized he had to look up and kind of went "buh?" but I love him anyway. Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun is shockingly tall in person, and has this blinding brat-grin smile and I kind of looked at him and my hormones went 'guh' and I was still stunned when I stumbled past Yeh and Ryeo and went off the stage.
that's all for SJ, but outside, some fangirls came up to me and engrished at me a little, gave me a card, then (as they turned to go) I shit you not, one pointed across the path and said to the other "look! more! I love waegook-in!". then they ran off to give cards to more waegooks, because we're hilarious.
edit: ohh there was another part, toward the middle of the show. they each brought out something that was important to them in some way, and all these objects were on a table, then Teuk picked each thing up and the fans guessed who it belonged to. ummm... I might be confused on whose was what but as I remember it, Hyukjae had a pillow with his own picture on it and the fans guessed it was Donghae's (and he ran up and made out with it, he ships Eunhae harder than any fan ever btw)... Shindong had a Rubik's cube, someone (Teuk? Donghae?) had a picture of the blue lightstick ocean from one of the Super Shows, Siwon had a diary/daily planner and they read a bit from it and he flipped his shit and hopped up and down and was basically adorable, Sungmin had a motorcycle helmet, Kyuhyun had his clarinet, Heechul had the mother-fucking METAL ROD THAT WAS IN HIS LEG, Yesung had some mix CD I think, and Ryeowook had his S.E.S fanclub membership card and one of their albums and did a little part of one of their songs. I think he liked them so much because he secretly dreamed of becoming one of them one day.