"You Are My Sam-Sam, My Only Sam-Sam, You Make Me Happy When Skies Are Grey"

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I never imagined pain this strong...I put my baby munchkin down this afternoon with my sister...I never dreamt that it was possible to love something as much as I did her...half of my heart was put to sleep today along with my Sammykins...I just hope she knows that everything that I did for her, I did out of love and had only the best intentions...and if she did suffer, I hope she can forgive me...I'm going with my sister to watch her be cremated next week and then I'll keep her ashes in my room next to her little framed picture...she was the best dog anyone could ever ask for, so smart and cute and well-behaved...she was my everything and I hope she knows that...all this being said, I don't think I'll ever get another pet again...I love animals with all my being but I don't think I can endure something like this again...I went through a difficult time when my mom lost her dog like three years back but it was a picnic compared to this...Miki was sick and I took care of him and loved him but he wasn't MY dog, he was my mom's...the whole family loved Sammy but she was always MINE and everyone knew it...I was the mommy...neither of us slept last night, I was on the floor with her and my mom joined us...we had a nice little slumber party in Sammy's honor...during the night her painkiller wore off so she wasn't comfy the whole night through, which I wasn't happy about but there was nothing I could do at that point...we made it through the night though, I lay next to her, talked to her, and held her little paw...she was so sick, my poor baby...I'm glad she won't hurt anymore though...I'll do the crying and hurting for her, just so long as she's no longer suffering...my Sam-Sam was my little furry happiness and I love her more than I thought was ever humanly possible...I hope she's happy and peaceful wherever she is and that she doesn't forget her mommy or how much I love her.

<3 Samantha "Sam-Sam" Kovic <3
November 25, 1990-June 1, 2006