he kicked me in the head...
so yesterday was an interestin day... and what i can remember of it...SUCKED
i go into work @ 11am...suppose to get out at 8... first off... its busy as hell and i dont get a break till after 4 hours... im exhausted... then my boss bribes me into stayin 2 extra hours... not only am i gonna get paid for them, hes gonna give me $20... alright cool... so around 7 or 8 he asks me to go to staples to get some paper... im like... cool. i get to get out of the store and get paid for it... so i go to staples and then i get gas... so im comin around the corner to get back on the highway... and my truck dies.. in the middle of the street... they have to send a guy from work to come give me a jump... so to make a long story short... he jumps me like 4 or 5 times... then it dies for good in the mall parkin lot. i call my mom and tell her that her boyfriend needs to come and help me change my battery... they show up at 11pm... now ive been at work for 12 hours... well minus the 3 hours i spent tryin to get my car to work... so then we cant get the battery out... fuck fuck fuck... but a stranger pulls up... WHO IS A MECHANIC FOR 43534545 YEARS! and he pops it right out.. at this point i realize i have lost the $20 my boss gave me.. mutha fucker... so then we replace my dead battery with a brand new battery... second one ive bought this week...!!!!!!!!!! but then im cool... i can go to this party ive been waitin to go to all night... where i am ready to get SHITFACED.. patricks there and im still mad at him for last night... but theres really nothing i can do about it.. so im pounding back the beers, because not only did i have a TERRIBLE day.. i can tell patrick has something he wants to say to me that im not gonna like.. so finally when im on my way to being druuuunk i pull him outside.. where he tells me HES done.. yeah im still dumbfounded as well.. hes done fighting, hes done tryin, hes just done... as usual.. so what do i do? i over react... i try to convince him hes an idiot... like always.. only like always... its not workin.. and i always end up lookin like a pathetic idiot... he just wants to be friends.. how can you be just friends with someone youre completely in love with? how do you put everything like that aside? and WHY is it so easy for him to do so? and we all know what happens when melissa gets upset...she drinks more... well i drank alright... by the time i got home i was hammered, all i wanted to do was sleep, but the room wouldnt stop spinning... so patrick was nice enough to get me a trash can.. and when i woke up this morning to him next to me... some of me wanted to deny the fact that we're not gonna try to make US work... only it didnt work... we're still just friends.. hes still not gonna hold me... hes still not gonna tell me he loves me... hes still gonna keep running away.. because he thinks some things just arent meant to be... thats just something im not willin to believe about me and him...
i go into work @ 11am...suppose to get out at 8... first off... its busy as hell and i dont get a break till after 4 hours... im exhausted... then my boss bribes me into stayin 2 extra hours... not only am i gonna get paid for them, hes gonna give me $20... alright cool... so around 7 or 8 he asks me to go to staples to get some paper... im like... cool. i get to get out of the store and get paid for it... so i go to staples and then i get gas... so im comin around the corner to get back on the highway... and my truck dies.. in the middle of the street... they have to send a guy from work to come give me a jump... so to make a long story short... he jumps me like 4 or 5 times... then it dies for good in the mall parkin lot. i call my mom and tell her that her boyfriend needs to come and help me change my battery... they show up at 11pm... now ive been at work for 12 hours... well minus the 3 hours i spent tryin to get my car to work... so then we cant get the battery out... fuck fuck fuck... but a stranger pulls up... WHO IS A MECHANIC FOR 43534545 YEARS! and he pops it right out.. at this point i realize i have lost the $20 my boss gave me.. mutha fucker... so then we replace my dead battery with a brand new battery... second one ive bought this week...!!!!!!!!!! but then im cool... i can go to this party ive been waitin to go to all night... where i am ready to get SHITFACED.. patricks there and im still mad at him for last night... but theres really nothing i can do about it.. so im pounding back the beers, because not only did i have a TERRIBLE day.. i can tell patrick has something he wants to say to me that im not gonna like.. so finally when im on my way to being druuuunk i pull him outside.. where he tells me HES done.. yeah im still dumbfounded as well.. hes done fighting, hes done tryin, hes just done... as usual.. so what do i do? i over react... i try to convince him hes an idiot... like always.. only like always... its not workin.. and i always end up lookin like a pathetic idiot... he just wants to be friends.. how can you be just friends with someone youre completely in love with? how do you put everything like that aside? and WHY is it so easy for him to do so? and we all know what happens when melissa gets upset...she drinks more... well i drank alright... by the time i got home i was hammered, all i wanted to do was sleep, but the room wouldnt stop spinning... so patrick was nice enough to get me a trash can.. and when i woke up this morning to him next to me... some of me wanted to deny the fact that we're not gonna try to make US work... only it didnt work... we're still just friends.. hes still not gonna hold me... hes still not gonna tell me he loves me... hes still gonna keep running away.. because he thinks some things just arent meant to be... thats just something im not willin to believe about me and him...