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so what has been up with my life?? sometimes i ask my self the same question....LIFE a four letter word that confuses the hell outta me....lol...i dont know i swear i think about like 20 millon things every second..my mind never rests..i wish i could have this like little machine that could sort and fix all my problems at once...but there isnt and i will have to just pull it thru till i fix these ones then others get to come...i feel like i am seriously chasing something that i will never catch...and i should not have to do that...i need someone that will just sweep me off my feet... cause i derserve that...and my mommy has gotta like them...y do i even chase the boy i chase now...my mommy dont like him very much...and he treats me like shit...but i am jsut so scared... maybe it is because i feel confortable around him...but i cant be chained to him when he does not feel the same about me....LIFE...i swear the day it gets easy will be the day i die...but hey...the heart would have no rainbow, had the eyes no tears...<----- one of my fav quotes ever...if you never have been sad...how do you know what happiness truly is?? that is what keeps me goin...everyday... just knowing that life everyday could get a lil worse...and if it was not for my friends than i would just give up... dont get me wrong.. i am not saying my life is bad...cause it is not at all... i just always have to work a lil harder at everything that i do...even when it comes to relationships... that is ok tho...cause in the end.... i know i will appercaite it more...
my boss today told me today that i should get a something together for modeling...cause she said that my senior pics were jsut great...ya right...lmao...i hate most of them...and i take horrible pics... i would not make it very far in hte modeling world if ya ask me...but hey thecompliment was awsum...a single girl like me needs a compliment every once in awhile.. :)
so today i woke up at like 11 which is early for me cuase jennifer ann was gettin her senior pics and decided to wake me up thanks jay...lol..then she said we are goin out to breakfast so hurry up and get ready... so i get up!! get ready!! and she calls me and says she got called into work and she cant go.. ahh i woke up early for nuttin that is ok tho i had to wake up anyways...then my coach called me and asked if i wanna go shopping with her for pratice clothes.. i was like sure..so we went adn got it all... and i came up with this idea that everyday we have a collage day...and we got matching shorts for every collage..yaya i was excited we spent $610 dollars on all the clothes....ya thats alot..but hey were so cute lol....well since i wrote a book...i am gonna go to bed...sorry to those people who actually read this...lol sweet dreams ...
~ Danny
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