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i really hate to admit it, but i feel about the same way as i did last fall tonight. i just get the feeling latly that i am on my way to falling apart again. atleast this time i wont be in a tiny square apartment pacing from one end to the other..
no matter how hard i try i feel like i fall short in so many respects. i get the feeling that i may have let down a lot of people this weekend and there is no where left to turn. i used to be so excited about school and now it just seems obvious that i am going to have to bullshit my way through in order to get a good grade because i just cannot keep up with the workload.
mostly i dont like the feeling of being left behind. i dont even feel like i should be here tonight. i should be 3000 miles east...maybe not...but that is the direction i turn when i reach my breaking point.
no matter how hard i try i feel like i fall short in so many respects. i get the feeling that i may have let down a lot of people this weekend and there is no where left to turn. i used to be so excited about school and now it just seems obvious that i am going to have to bullshit my way through in order to get a good grade because i just cannot keep up with the workload.
mostly i dont like the feeling of being left behind. i dont even feel like i should be here tonight. i should be 3000 miles east...maybe not...but that is the direction i turn when i reach my breaking point.